I've worked at this stuff for many years. I've never tried to be scholar. I've simply tried to do the work. The watchword I was trained with was, "I seek to learn that I may serve." I have worked to help people over the years. I've done everything from teaching public and private classes, to individual counseling and magick.
I've cured a few headaches. My Gal gives me credit for helping to keep her alive but so many magicians worked on that, I can take no credit for that. Those that I have seen grow over the years have done so on their own efforts. Those that have failed have simply succumb to their own fears and issues. That formula is obvious. Yes, experienced folks can point things out from time to time but success or failure depends on the other. They choose to succeed or fail. It is as simple as that.
I feel like I haven't helped. Not for a lack of effort but that helping is overrated and not all that possible, except in minor increments.
A lot of GD work is around personal spiritual growth. I feel I have grown a lot, even though the universe reminds me of past errors at an alarming rate. I am not the same guy. I am a better magician.
I feel like it doesn't matter.
My most exciting work of late has been with meditation. Most of the time I like it. It may make life interesting for a while. I may learn something.
I feel like everything else I have learned, it won't really matter.