Sunday, June 30, 2013

Totally Embarrassed Myself

Posting by phone.

A couple of months ago I attended a class by Coyle and Duquette. Lon interrupted the class to ask my opinion on things goetic and what they were teaching because " you have successfully done this." Cool. I have to admit to an ego boost for Lon to stop a class and ask for my opinion.

Just 45 minutes ago and after three hours of classes Lon asked me to do the closing lbrp. Again I was taken by complete surprise, especially since I haven't done one in a year. I did it.  Unfortunately I forgot half the ritual! As anyone would be I was totally embarrassed! Mortified.

On my way home from Sacramento, I pulled off the freeway, onto a frontage road and did it right while focussing on where I was a half hour prior.

I find myself driving through Stockton and I am hit with the vision of perfection!! I laughed and all is well. Everything is so cool. Just after, I look up. The street sign is Wizard street. Thank you universe!!

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

I Lost Touch with Reality

When I first had my visions of perfection, I was a bit euphoric. I remember that someone criticized that perspective and said that I had obviously lost touch with reality. For some odd reason I recalled those comments today and these thoughts followed.

Before my visions, this is the reality I experienced.

  • I was confused by other people's behavior
  • I thought that behavior always denoted a wrong doing by my part
  • I believed an argument was pretty much always appropriate
  • I believed that there were good and bad people and events
  • I was angry, oh so angry
  • I believed there was a right way and a wrong way.
  • "God" and "The Gods" were mysterious and possibly dangerous
  • Christians were pretty much irresponsible
  • Evangelists were immoral
  • I and everyone else needed to do personal alchemical work
  • I was often difficult to approach.
  • I was a seeker
  • I needed help to grow. So did everyone else.
  • Serious spiritual work was always necessary.
  • Demons could hurt you.
  • I was obsessed with the very bad thing.
  • Passive-aggressive people fueled the obsession.
  • I suffered from PTSD
  • I am sure there was more along those lines.
Yes, I have totally lost touch with most of those things. In my new reality:
  • I know that everything is perfect.
  • Our souls and reality continually unfold and that process is perfect.
  • Everything is whole and complete.
  • Non-duality is not about the third thing it is the absence of the illusionary thing. For instance, there is only good. There is no bad.
  • I am happy.
  • It is impossible to do anything wrong.
  • "God" and "The Gods" are totally cool.
  • No one needs to do spiritual work. Things will just take longer if you don't.
  • Evangelists are immoral but that is okay.
  • I am a mystic/magician/teacher/healer.
  • Everyone grows regardless
  • Demons are our friends.
  • I am friends with a disciple of Christ.
  • I understand when an issue is about me or someone else or both.
  • I don't argue with anyone.
  • I have clear vision and see the cause and effect others miss.
  • I omit passive-aggressive people from my life.
  • If you want to be a jerk, that is totally cool. You're still perfect.
  • Jerks are just God cleverly disguised as assholes.
  • From time to time, I am euphoric.
  • I smile a lot.
  • Life is totally wonderful.
Yeah, I lost touch with that old reality. The question is, why would anyone prefer me in that old reality compared to this one?

P.S. I am still an insomniac but Hypnos, the Greek god of sleep, is totally cool and helping me out with that.

Friday, June 7, 2013

Healing Visions

The more healing work I do the more I am aware that certain ailments look the same to my astral vision.

PTSD looks like we are made of white light and wrapped in black cloth. The trauma rips away part of that material letting the light shine through. It is my theory that the 'black cloth' is the barrier that keeps our souls from shining through before we clear up the dross. Severe trauma rips that cloth away and exposes our souls before either we our the world can handle that power. This accounts for a great deal of acting out not to mention extreme internal difficulties.

 Less severe emotional trauma is a bit more specific to the event. There are color patterns involved but these are more individualized.

Bipolar folks have very fast 'sticks' of energy that move in odd patterns within the astral cranium.

These patterns allow me to do better work as I don't have to spend as much time trying to figure things out. For instance, I learned today of a possible new symptom. Some time ago, I posted that I was working with a person that had an aneurism. After a bit of a break, I was asked to look in on some odd behavior this his wife thought may be depression or an increase in his confusion. I saw strange wisps of thought or etheric body rising as if some part of him was leaving to another world but that energy was weak. We didn't know what to make of it. So, I stopped the work. I am quite cautious. We have since learned that this person tried to poison himself. I know now that a similar vision may be a sign of a serious health risk. If I see that again, there will be an immediate appeal to see a physician.


From time to time, I am asked about my sharing my tech. I would but frankly I have no idea how to teach or copy this for anyone else. For the most part, my tech involves getting myself out of my own way. The less angst and doubt one has the better one does at this sort of thing. Speaking of which...


I haven't been posting much. Part of that reason is that I am deliriously happy and content. For all of you out there doing the difficult work, know that there is a pay off. You can get here too by rigorously following your path.