The words of my mentor, who is not prone to praise or hyperbole, were inspiring both before and after the balloon popped. He said that I had made contact with my higher self. For those that are not away of my ontology, the Holy Guardian Angel (HGA) is a point above normal consensus reality that teaches us to become fully connected to our own immortal soul. The Higher Self is another term for immortal soul. In Qabalistic terms, I relate this to the three supernals when the Tree of Life is viewed microcosmically.
From that state of awareness, I was able to carry back a few ideas. This is a revision of my awareness and reality.
- Everything is perfect right now.
- Every way is valid. Those that say that any path "does not know" do not know.
- Obtaining an understanding of the Higher Self, by that I mean the immortal soul, is, in very practical terms, possible. Prior to this, I strove for that sort of thing without really believing I could obtain it in this lifetime.
From back down on earth, I realize that even striving for this is a form of desire and grasping that is not conducive to manifesting the Ultimate. However, striving in the way I am striving in the present, is a necessary step. My current method of reaching my intended state is prayer and meditation.
I now have a mala upon my person during waking hours. I use it to pray during down time at work. I pray as I wait in line at lunch. I pray at home.
I am also starting formal yoga teaching at night. Perhaps these teachers are not gurus. It doesn't matter. They are teachers of the moment.