Before retiring, I popped into the temple room and asked my HGA what I needed to do. "Aspire, aspire, keep aspiring." The answer may have meant in general terms and over a period of time. Though, I felt it had a greater sense of urgency and immediacy than that. I feel that I am under intense pressure now. That may be the pressure preceding a breakthrough or simply self-imposed emotional junk mail. Either way, I shall continue to aspire. I am under no hardship at all when I look at my brothers and sisters throughout the world. Nor are my small and humble prayers a match for monks and those that have devoted their entire lives to the calling. Yet, some days, it feels hard.
I also worked on my pantacle today.
picture from: http://www.parkenet.org/jp/challenges/aspiration.jpg