Saturday Meditation Work

My back is a bit better. I am still on vicodin but less.

I performed the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram, Banishing Ritual of the Hexagram, the Middle Pillar, the Circulation of the body of light, the 1^st Degree temple opening and asked my HGA for assistance. My concentration on the above was a bit questionable. Though, actually doing the ritual work felt good.

I spent a good deal of time on the meditation. The sphere around me had a nice violent edge and my body glowed brightly white with a soft blue hue. I willed myself to project and perhaps got a small feeling of movement – nothing substantial.

So, I sat there and repeated a mantra. “I am grateful for and comforted by the safe space that is around me.” I am not sure how long I did this. I had the urge to look up and above me was a huge temple. The walls were transparent so I could see the night sky. A crescent moon rested on the top, making me thing it was mosque but I don’t think it was. I willed myself to rise and, looking down, saw the floor fall away.

I saw an elephant, a symbol of Yesod. Then an arrow came into view, a symbol of the path of samekh that connects Yesod to Tipereth. The arrow tip broke and spilled bright white light and I slowly sank back down.

Some would see the word rising and take this to mean astral projection. I don’t. When I do this it is more like watching a movie with changing scenery. I am still well within my body.

I felt very much at peace even as I was aware of another failed attempt.I am discouraged but this is what separates the dreamers from the doers. The dreamers give up when more effort is required. I will not give up.