Today, was quite odd.
I attended my niece's confirmation into the Catholic Church. Normally, I enjoy the energy the priests whip up but this time, there was very little. The spoke a bit about what Jesus said of the holy spirit. This really fit in with my philosophy, if you squint. I will look more into that.
My brother-in-law's sister's husband sat next to me. He is quite educated in Christian matters. I asked him about the meditation I developed and how it would be viewed by Christianity. He said that it is so far from the modern mindset that it isn't antithetical.
At the reception, I ran across a person I used to work with. She asked me what I did and I just came out with the fact that I was pagan, did Ceremonial Magick and was writing a book on meditation. This is a big deal for me to be that caviler about it. She is good friends with many people I still work with which could be a problem. Maybe. Maybe not.
Her response was great. She suggested places to go with regard to learning deeper forms of mindfulness in Fresno. We have read the same Buddhist books. I was pleasantly surprised. This may have been a result of last night's work. I tried to really get emotional about the goal of the meditation. I added a bit about receiving ideas from others.
In church, I had a thump from my Immortal Soul. I know that it what it was but I'm waiting on this one. The message was that I need to start my own church. Yikes! I don't view the meditation as a religion at all. When I left the Golden Dawn groups I thought I was out of the woods as far as running a group. Running a GD-style group was something I didn't really want to do but felt obligated. So, I tried. Wrong.
This is an entirely different thing. Teaching the MM is scary because it works so very well. I am going to wait until I see some sort of direction before starting such a thing. If that is what I am supposed to do, it will take a while.
I have fallen off the wagon a bit when it comes to eating better and eating organic. I have noticed I have become more cranky. I will go back to being a soldier for the cause and see if my crankiness abates.
I am developing ideas on how the Greater Neschemah (Immortal Soul), the Ruach (personality), Nephesch (animal soul) and the automatic personality work together. When I flush it out, I will post.
It is getting harder to pour effort into this space. Hence the reason my posts have been short and choppy of late. This is just likely a phase I am going through. I enjoy blogging.
Edit: It is likely that someone reading this post, will represent the 100,000 time that Doing Magick has been read.