In my post earlier tonight I wrote, "Having worked my ass at this stuff, I am taught when I invoke."
I have always approached the work of a ceremonial magician as a student. Anyone that denies part of his or her work is as a student is learning. Yet, all attitudes color the experience. What if I enter things as someone able to accept the full experience, as someone that knows enough (at the moment)? there is a better word than I can articulate here. I will find it.