Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Not Everything Has Come Up Roses

Well, my recovery has gone quite well and I have experienced great joy. Yet over the past couple of days, a little bit of the obsession has returned. This has resulted in a bit of frustration at work quite out of proportion to the weak return of the obsessive thoughts.

A day and a half into this minor relapse, I sat at work and simply thought of the deity. I cone of light emerged from my chest narrowing to point some distance away. The diety was there. I was immediately calmed and had a much better day than I had prior to that occurring.

I am not sure what to label my relationship with the deity. Friendship? No. Worship? No. Love? In a dangerous sort of way, maybe. Connection, yes there is one. Regardless, right now, it is pretty cool.

1 comment:

Amethyst said...

Nonsense, everything *has* come up roses; you've just rediscovered that old cliché that even the most beautiful of roses has thorns.

But look how quickly a pricked finger heals, if you take the time to take care of it. :3