I haven't posted in a bit due only to a shift in habits. As regular readers know, I have been instructed to lose weight because it effects my psychology in ways that I do not understand. As part of my Weight Watchers regimen, I have been doing a great deal of walking. This has impacted my blogging time. I am pleased to report that I dropped another 3.0 pounds this week making 8.8 overall. By next week, I expect to have lost over 25% of the weight slated for removal. I am losing weight faster than their normal clients but I am simply strictly following the plan.
I had been concerned that my work of late was was more skill orientated than HGA focussed. I then realized the weight loss was specifically directed by my HGA and relaxed a bit. I also encountered a situation that could have brought back some old and troublesome wounds. However, the use of the Prayer of Joseph the Visionary found on Jason's blog smoothed that over very quickly.
I have again been pursuing the astral projection work without much success over the last few days. A friend did make flying ointment for me with some odd effects. The first time I tried it I simply lay on the floor of my temple room and put a touch on my third eye. The effect was not unlike being plugged into a wall socket but with some sort of electrical resister between me and the wall. I found the sensation fascinating, the effect of natural magick fascinating and yet frustrated by my own resistance to the process! The second time I wore it through the LBRP and BRH to see what sort of effect that would have. I can not report anything like the first time. Next time, I will do the full rituals plus the energy raising middle pillar and then put on the flying ointment. If nothing else, it will keep me from stealing hubcaps.
This morning, I did and LBRP, BRH and middle pillar. I don't generally report this sort of thing because it is so common as to be incredibly redundant. However, this time, I used Jason's technique of opening the veil in three directions before doing the middle pillar. One word: Awesome! I feel different. I feel spiritually connected and yet withdrawn. I feel supremely centered and immovable. I am without insecurity. This experiment I will repeat.
My magick is changing very fast. I used to be a pure theurgist and did almost no thaumaturgy. After a few goetic invocations, some of the negative attitude toward thaumaturgy has faded. However, my HGA warned me to stop with the goetic work for a while for fear I'd be too distracted by earthly power. I then read Jason's book and want to investigate more 'near earth' magick as opposed to the loftily idealized Work I normally do. Balance is good. However, that warning sticks in the back of my mind and I will tread carefully.
I do plan on taking a more active defensive stand when I encounter odd energy. There is something about my work now that must purify things more external than internal. I think this has to do with unnecessary baggage more than a nameless other. However, other's peoples perceptions, emotions and magick can cling to you. I plan to be ridding myself of as much of that as is practical. I will be ever watchful of sliding away from my work into realms best left for other practitioners. I will bear no distractions to the Work of Unity.