Today, I had lunch with a friend who, for very good reason, is on top of the world. I am very happy for him. During that conversation, he said someone finds me intimidating because I radiate 'superiority'. Later, in reference to Leo's in general, he said we have a tendency to think we are better than others.
He is right. Leo's are better than others. Let us examine why this is so.
I remember telling my mentor many months ago that soon I would have to deal with the issue of arrogance. He asked me why I thought that and I said it is because it has been mentioned in conversations with him and others. Also, I have become aware of the Universe working to clue me in. Therefore, I believe I am perceived as arrogant by many. I have observed that most people's perceptions of others are 90% projection, 10% insight and 50% the mutual resonance or dissonance their personalities. I have also perceived that right or wrong, when the universe keeps presenting a particular perception there is a reason. That reason is often unrelated to the ideas and convictions of those verbalizing their particular concerns. There is always a reason. There is always a lesson. As a magician, I am obligated to learn that lesson.
In his normal Socratic way, he asked me why people perceived me as arrogant. I told him that I honestly didn't know as I often defer to him or flat out say that I am just a student or that I simply don't know. These are not signs of arrogance. He agreed saying he's heard me say such things many times. Though, never once did he says I wasn't an arrogant bastard! I still know I am perceived in this way and there is a lesson afoot!
So now my friend says I radiate superiority. Is this a clue?
I certainly do not feel superior to the person who feels intimidated at all. I truly enjoy being around this person. Yet, the Universe is telling me something. How do I radiate this energy? From whence does it come? How can I turn it on and off to my advantage? None of these questions matter.
What matters is the underlying theme of arrogance. I have literally thrown myself into the Work to become a better human being as I was not happy with who I perceived myself to be. Again, not a trait of arrogance. Yet, I reject not the Universe's message merely because I do not understand.
Leos, much like Scorpios, can often see past the bullshit people use to hide who they are really are. Generally speaking, Leo's point out the bullshit; Scorpio's use insight to their advantage. Both often result in negative consequences. Neither is the proper method of using this ability. While I have been much more silent on such things than I ever have been, maybe the answer is lies here. Frankly, I don't think I have it right. Though, this still may be a useful line of thought.
Today, WitchDoctorJoe stated that it can be intimidating to do an honest on-line self-assessment. Which I thought this was going to be. As it turns out, I am simply and honestly saying that I don't know this lesson yet. I do not feel I am even on track to solve the puzzle. I merely recognize the lesson and have introduced the seed of thought to my psyche. We will see if it ever bears fruit.
(Picture from: http://www.horoscoper.net/images/Leo.GIF)