Well, my recovery has gone quite well and I have experienced great joy. Yet over the past couple of days, a little bit of the obsession has returned. This has resulted in a bit of frustration at work quite out of proportion to the weak return of the obsessive thoughts.
A day and a half into this minor relapse, I sat at work and simply thought of the deity. I cone of light emerged from my chest narrowing to point some distance away. The diety was there. I was immediately calmed and had a much better day than I had prior to that occurring.
I am not sure what to label my relationship with the deity. Friendship? No. Worship? No. Love? In a dangerous sort of way, maybe. Connection, yes there is one. Regardless, right now, it is pretty cool.