What I Learned Last Night

I am fascinated by the idea that the magicks I saw last night do not bother me at all. I am actually amused.

What bothers me is the present day hiding, denial and social bullshit. That is really my ego. It is a search for validation which in reality means nothing. My only question is W.T.F.? Needing that from people that did that is like wanting a Best Dressed award from Oscar Madison. This is no insult to Oscar at all but a condemnation of my need for social vaporware which is exactly what my little self condemns others for. One word: Hypocrisy.

I expect this will yield some fruit and is part of the Work I am doing, even though it feels like I just dropped into the sewer of the past. I will figure out where this need to prove being wronged comes from. This must be purged. It interferes with seeing perfection, even while being perfection...um yeah.

I know that contraction makes no sense. Welcome to my head.