Thursday, August 16, 2012

I Was a Lesbian for Three Minutes

This is one of those posts that people will comment about and say, "How can he post that stuff?" I can post it because I am not embarrassed. There is no reason to be. The Work is the Work.

Many years ago, I had a dream in which I was a lesbian. This was a very real dream set in the late 1800's or early1900's. There was another woman there. We had sex. When she put two fingers in me, I learned what it is like to be a woman having sex. I am telling you that nothing a guy feels is anywhere near that good. If I was woman, I'd be a complete slut.

So, why am I mentioning this?

Of late I have experienced a couple of things. First, my friend the Psychic did some work on me. As part of that she says she removed a block in my heart chakra. From that I have become much more accepting of myself, past pains and traumas and, just as importantly, of my virtues and abilities. Something, 'popped' for lack of a better term. The removal of those doubts is a huge thing.

That pop was felt by someone else. I could feel the reaction from that person.

From that, I did the Manifestation Meditation and accepted my open heart chakra. From there, I accepted my current level of connection to all else. The first night this happened, I had a dream. I was in a fire house. Well, I knew it was a firehouse but there was no firemen. I was in a bright red jump suit. Suddenly, my ex-girlfriend is there. She is also in a bright red jump suit. The red was very very bright. Just as suddenly, I was her. I could see my red hair and myself in a mirror. In the blink of an eye I was on a bright red back and riding down the a road lined with trees on both sides.

I realized that I suddenly had a female body. Immediately, I wanted to know how those parts work. I was  going to find a place to masturbate. I felt the smallest twinge of female sexual excitement. Then the dream ended.

Oddly, both these dreams lasted the same amount of time.

This to me is a sign of being connected to another side of me. We all have a ying and a yang, a male and a female. This we know but what it implies a third thing, Unity. Unity is divinity. This comes from the acceptance of all sides of oneself. There is no denial, no rejection.

News of The Agnostic

She found a job today! I have no idea how much the Manifestation Meditation came into play in that. Only that was her starting point.


I had mentioned previously that I was going to recapitulate Qabalistic pathworking up the tree. I have now decided to do every path, every sephira until the universe tells me to stop.


The pop occurred when I consciously accepted my opening chakra. I wrote that in a bit of a convoluted order the first time.

1 comment:

Yvonne Chireau said...

This is interesting, but I see this also as an extension of your healing practice, to the point of being able to empathize physically with the female physical body?
I dunno. Cool.