There is a difference between those things that one knows intellectually and one knows intimately. I have finally reached somewhat of a clue. I know it more deeply than intellectually but I don't have an intimate knowledge of it yet. That is because it is right but not quite right. it is like having a key that almost turns a lock.
Another's opinion of me does not matter. Where someone (anyone) thinks I am as a magician, spiritual person or just a human is of no use. I will no longer pay tribute to those that hide missteps of their own or others by reflecting it back to my progress on my path.
What matters is who I am right now.
What matters is what I am right now.
What matters is how fully I manifest myself and Myself (Greater Neschemah).
Other people's weaknesses are not a reflection of my own. They may own what is theirs.
If someone needs to hide something, that is a reflection of their guilt or insecurity, not my spirit. This is true no matter how much their believe their own blinds. Sincerity and depth of perception are not equivalents.
I will allow them to return to their own vomit again and again.
The only thing that matters is following my own spirit. It is the only way I can serve.