- Have you always wanted to do something but found a reason not to? I have always wanted to be a writer but never pursued it. As you can tell from this blog I love to write. Yet, I never wrote a book like I am now. Those urges that you've always had are your soul speaking to you. I am not talking of unrealistic dreams but obviously achievable actions.
- Consistant unfulfilled world views. (See below on ethics) I have major problems with people's ethical violations. I see the world a certain way and do not understand why others do not see ethical situations as I do. This doesn't mean that I should try to understand the world. It means my soul is telling me to live that way to the nth degree.
- Things constantly falling into your life that fall outside what you would expect. For instance, over the course of your life people constantly try to get you to go to ceramics classes and it always baffled you because, "I am not an artist". Go the the class already!
My father once pointed out that Mother Theresa's motivations could have been selfish. He wasn't saying anything negative about her. He was saying that her faith claims to reward lives such as hers. Thereby, she could be doing those wonderful things with a selfish motivation.
In reading the Dalai Lama, he makes a similar claim in that our compassionate acts and kindnesses much us feel good. Therefore, it is okay to practice selfish compassion.
I bring this up because today, I was able to forgive. I was able to forgive those involved in the incident that caused my PTSD, other people's most recent misdeeds and people who wronged me so long ago that I can't remember their names. You would think that latter group wouldn't matter. It did.
When I was truly able to forgive, it was as if a thousand points of tension released from my body. (Come on, you thought I was going to say a thousand points of light didn't you?) I felt GREAT.
Now the downside was that I wasn't able to fully hold it, not yet. Some of that crap is still there but I did get rid of a bunch of it. I spent a lot of time today thinking of forgiveness, compassion and the like.
I was amused to learn that the Dalai Lama's version of ethics is what makes me angry. I have always tried to live by them but few others can even understand what I'm talking about. Over the years, this has stoked my anger, in complete contradiction to my ethics. His ethical principals ought to be obvious to anyone. I am going to work on embodying these principals for myself and the further manifestation of my soul because I have learned to listen to it. (See above)