This week has been relatively better. I can be very depressed and see no future at times. I feel a slightly down normal most of the time but with an edge to it. It is as if I have just survived a climb up a mountain. For very brief flashes I am very confident in my ability to create a future. These feelings are short and fierce. They fade quickly.
I am wanting to do magick again. I know it isn't wise yet.
I have read a chapter of a scholarly work on a goddess.
I do not feel I have grown for this though.