Friday, December 16, 2011

Flashes of ...

This week has been relatively better. I can be very depressed and see no future at times. I feel a slightly down normal most of the time but with an edge to it. It is as if I have just survived a climb up a mountain. For very brief flashes I am very confident in my ability to create a future. These feelings are short and fierce. They fade quickly.

I am wanting to do magick again. I know it isn't wise yet.

I have read a chapter of a scholarly work on a goddess.

I do not feel I have grown for this though.


Anonymous said...

I have always thought it was a goal of a magician/mystic to practice the skill of "finding the silver lining." When you have been doing it for a while, not only does it become second nature, but it starts to change your outlook, perspective and your life in general. When you change your outlook and perspective, you start to draw like minded people to you. Having like minded people around you reinforces those great qualities that brought them in your life originally.


Robert said...

I don't know that I'd put it that way. Finding the positive in the horrible can lead one to live a happier but no less deluded life.

Finding the core of situations and problems leads to not encountering them again or having a better solution the next time they cycle around.