The doctor asked me if there were any emotional triggers. I said no. It is my automated response. "Are you okay?" "Yup, just fine." Meanwhile, someone is applying a tourniquet. Double that for emotional questions? Yes, I'm fine. No problem. If it wasn't for this back of mine...
So, let's see what happened before it went south.
- We didn't bury my grandmother. She had donated her body to science and they frown of having to dig them back up. We held a wake of sorts. There were lots of old pictures which were really cool.
- I went to Pantheacon, got my ass kicked by Pan, in a good way (I think).
- I went through that tantra class, which was certainly an emotional change.
- I confronted some shadow imagery.
As a result, I have a freer spirit. Though, the rest of my is still trying to go back into old restraining habits. Enter my back pain. This may simply the result of my conscious self being so willing and adaptable to change and the rest of me continuing to be a rigid jack ass.
Solution: Find a moon goddess. Ask her to help me accept change. Invoke often.