Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Dilema

As regular readers know, the last few month's of my Work, has involved exploring the Enochian entities. Those new to this space, merely have to look for the 'labels' section to the upper right of the screen and click on the link marked Enochian or Enochian Prepartion to read all related posts.

I've enjoyed my time with the Enochians. I've learned a great deal. A significant amount of which, has not been posted here. Frankly, it is too personal. I want to do more Enochian work. However, I am a trained ceremonial magician. I believe that working from a place of balance is the best way. Far too many detractions occur when the extremes are pushed.

Balance means continually being able to return to the starting point without a fight. Balance means being well rounded in the work. Balance means that one can not focus on the Work or magick 100% of the time. One must eat, sleep, work and do other things that don't involve magick. Though, the more I do this Work, the more I find that I have no idea what those other things may be.

Yet, I digress.

My choice at this time, is to delve into the depths of the water tablet or to return to skrying the tarot and geomantic symbols. The tarot calls me now that the Enochians have clued me in. There is SO MUCH magick I can do with that information. I am even contemplating a book. Geomantic skrying is calling to me because my work with the Populus and Via made me appreciate the entire scope of geomancy. I've never liked it previously.

As of this writing I am undecided as to what to do.

I am bothered by something else. I have not sat down and simply listened for my HGA of late. Why not? I spent twenty years seeking that and now that I have it, have I taken it for granted? Do I not appreciate it? Am I afraid to throw myself into its hands and be guided toward the abyss?

1 comment:

David said...

I know what you mean about the HGA. Even though its an entity that has your best interests in mind - even IS your very best self - it can be pretty intimidating. Abraham says in the Book of Abramelin not to summon it unless necessary. I'm not sure what to make of his instructions.

I have discovered since completing book three and starting on book four that most of the magic can be carried out without directly involving the HGA, so I have also felt the temptation to take it for granted or even forget about it. Discovering the spirits and all the new powers and magics can be distracting. Yet I also experienced a limited kind of communion at one point that allowed us to channel the Pure Christ straight down into Hell itself. I think, perhaps, that the HGA has to become more integrated over time and less of an externalized entity. I think eventually the connection - maybe even the identity - should be seamlessly interwoven with our own. But I suppose this is just speculation at this point.