Tuesday, September 12, 2023
How It Turned Out
You may recall that I was quite angry, unable to restrain an immediate thought of dissent and was more than direct. All these things I fought and failed to defeat, until now.
It has taken some time of filtering back through my memories to find each time I got worse.
At 16, having spent most of my youth either being picked on, fought, or feeling like one of those would happen at any moment, I realized that the one day I was angry, no one bothered me. I learned to fake it. Then, it became a minor habit.
In 1994, I started working for the County. Soon after, it jumped another level. All the way until I retired, my spirit kept telling me that I was in the wrong place. As always, spirit was correct. There are situations and people that can make it worse.
Around 2000, I joined a group that was bad for me.
After some time, I purged most of the last one’s damage, but I still had strong symptoms of the problem. Sometimes severe. By severe, I mean out of control but non-violent anger. I began to see the triggers and slowly succeeded in tamping down the behavior in certain situations. This was a sheer act of will. Now that I know the cause, I am quite proud of making any progress at all.
Before, I get to the cause, I did try mental health counseling. I went because I was so angry/frustrated at work. I saw four, count them, four, mental health professionals. All of them listened to my story and immediately told me to quit my job at the mental health department. That place was so backward and toxic that it would drive anyone nuts. Two of them had previously worked there. Two of them had not. I had thought the place toxic and they just confirmed what I knew. Much later I learned that many of my perceptions were more than correct, my reactions were not. Even when my reactions were perfectly acceptable, no progress can be made within dysfunctional dynamics.
By the time I figured it out, I had two main symptoms anger and forgetfulness. I could set my keys down and within a few seconds have no idea where they were. It should be noted that all anger was really frustration but that does not matter overmuch, except where it does.
One day, I was speaking with my daughter-in-law and mentioned that in a month I wrote 15,000 words of a book. Then, I had nasal surgery. I was unable to do much for a week. After that, I could not get back to it. That book is on the scrap heap of so many others. She said, “That is a symptom of ADHD.” She said that once the dopamine of the drive to accomplish is interrupted, it cannot come back. I made a mental note.
Over the course of a couple of months, she pointed out more and more symptoms. I took an on-line test and checked off 90% of the boxes. I gave a blank form to my wife. She checked off the same boxes. All of them. The only differences were that I had some marked as more severe than she and she had some more severe than myself.
I called my doctor. I was instantly cured with this first dose of medication.
The only frustration/anger I feel is when I get so busy that I fail to take the medication, which is not often. The difference is marked. It made me realize that my brain was so active that I was in a constant state of being overwhelmed. I can only describe it as being awash with so much electrical brain activity that it literally feels like my brain is on fire, minus the heat. Looking at it objectively is fascinating.
I could have magicked and meditated away on that forever and not succeeded.
Has my attitude or perspective changed? Not really. Unless I have had some sort of experience or input than not at all. I am still rather controversial at times in my ideas. Yet, they are expressed without any anger at all.
At any rate, no more frustration/anger. I am no longer forgetful. The downside is that I am not quite as driven as I used to be. Though, that may be due to age. I do not know.
So, my advice is that if you have an issue that your spiritual work is not helping, seek other methods.
Thursday, January 21, 2021
Judgement
Many who read the following will feel somewhat shocked about a certain portion of what is said below. Spirit conveyed no shock, no judgement. Spirit simply related what is. Seeing the world in a similar way aids the manifestation of spirit. This does not denote approval or disapproval.
Not long ago, I was successful at reducing my Facebook time.
The political events of January 6 changed that. Last night, I decided to once
again make the effort of reducing my posts. During my morning meditation I heard
this from Spirit.
In this case, I am not sure how to define what part of
Spirit told me this. My angel was not involved or at least not as I understood
the input. This seemed to be a more transpersonal authority.
Items in brackets were implied in the conversation.
Spirit: You need
to stop posting political opinions on Facebook. This does not serve the task
before you.
Myself: I understand.
Regardless, are those opinions correct?
Spirit: No. You
do not have enough information to be correct. Neither does anyone else. People
do not have enough information, even about those around them, to make correct
decisions [hold opinons]. Around you are people that have sex with animals,
that engage in [what you would call] depravity, that are thieves etc. You do
not know those around you. [Most people do not.] No one has enough information
about politics to be correct.
At this point, I am thinking of poor media coverage.
Spirit: So, it has always been.
So, much for blaming the media as well.
Judgement is always putting ourself at odds with others
instead of simple seeing what is. Living in that judgement-free place is
exceedingly difficult. At the extreme, how can you not judge those about to
kill you, as Jesus is said to have done? How can you not judge the person trying
to seduce your spouse? While judgement is certainly an understandable response
from a human perspective, it does not serve as well as we think. Judgement is a
detriment to peace.
Discernment is different. Discernment is the ability to wisely
determine compatibility. A person may need to keep her circle filled only with
others of her religion, until such time as she is sufficiently emersed to have
gained a certain level of understanding. This is discernment. When she reaches
a point where that is no longer necessary and branches out, this too is discernment.
When a person refrains from spending time with someone who is a physical,
mental or emotional threat, this is discernment. Placing a value on that
person, is judgement. Discernment does not judge.
The ego is very good at masking judgement as discernment. The
ego may see a person as a threat, which he is but that threat is purely to the
ego, not the person and certainly not to the spirit of the person sitting in
judgement. Still, the ego will rise up in judgement and tell the person they
are wisely discerning.
The point is peace. As long as we sit in judgement, we sit apart
from that which is. We sit in conflict. Conflict destroys peace. Peace relaxes
the mind to hear Spirit at deeper and deeper levels. Therefore, judgement restrains
us from Spirit.
Saturday, January 16, 2021
The Expression of The Ego
Our behavior, words and actions, is not intelligent. By that I mean the vehicle of expression is mechanical in nature.
The Ego has control over these mechanics using them to
express itself. Said ego is always at war, fighting something, convincing,
controlling (even in a negative way), game playing, and the like.
As we begin to grow spiritually, the ego is softened because
the energy that circulates through it is slowly is purified. The wallflower
slowly speaks. The boisterous become less noisy. The crowd pleaser becomes genuine.
The ego, still expressing itself, finds there is less to express.
When the higher faculties become active, and having witnessed
the proceeding the ego expresses itself in reverse. Internally, it begins to control
by stating that anything expressed is of itself and therefore of little consequence,
a failure of the spirit to supersede the lower nature. This attempt to control
is a final gasp.
Eventually, one learns the following.
The ego expresses itself.
The less ego there is, the less the expression.
The soul overwhelms the ego when the ego has been
sufficiently lessoned.
The soul expresses itself then through the vehicle of the
ego.
The ego either uses the energy of life or becomes a conduit
for it. It’s desire always the former, its true function the latter.
Tuesday, January 5, 2021
Spiritual Bypassing
I made a comment on Lon DuQuette’s page and was immediately accused of spiritual bypassing. I had to look it up before I remembered what that meant. So, for those of you that do not know, spiritual bypassing is using spiritual ideas and practices to sidestep personal, emotional ‘unfinished business,’ to shore up a shaky sense of self, or to belittle basic needs, feelings, and developmental tasks.” The goal of such practices, he claimed, was enlightenment.
This is absolutely true. People use all kinds of things to
avoid doing deep spiritual work and to continue to live in denial. Spiritual
bypassing is like putting a bandage on a broken leg. The leg is not harmed by
the bandage but it may be harmed by the lack of needed medical care.
I have seen people dress in a manner they deem ‘spiritual’
and claim initiatory titles they have not earned*. This may be bypassing the internal
darkness they cannot face and pretending to some level of spirituality they have
not obtained. Or it may be the unconscious stating of goals and aspiration,
which is a good thing.
The problem with immediately accusing someone of spiritual
bypassing is that spiritual knowledge can sound like bypassing to those that have
not progressed past a certain point.
If a person experiences a tragedy and says, “Well,
everything happens for a reason,” and suppresses their emotional reactions by
glossing over their pain, the denial is usually pretty obvious to onlookers.
The person is usually fooling themself. To reiterate, the problem is the
statement is true but the speaker does not know that at a deep level. They use
the words as a soothing balm and are not expressing spiritual knowledge or
experience.
The same statement can be made by a more actualized
individual who may feel and be willing to express the loss and at the same
time, having seen the machinery of the universe, knows that everything happens
to unfold the soul.
If you do not know the speakers or a bit removed from them,
it may be hard to tell which is which. The best way to handle that is to not
handle it. Simply be there for the person in question in anyway they need.
Those on the path refrain from such judgements as often as they are able.
To quote myself, "I have learned that my judgements of
other people's spirituality are just as invalid as everyone else's."**
All that said, there may be people that have evolved to a
point where the deepest tragedy does not create a sense of loss at all. I have
never met one but I am sure that they exist.
*This can be very detrimental to one’s growth. Claiming an
unearned title a problematic. Often the lessons associated with that title hit
all at once to the point one cannot recover. Other times, it just builds a wall
that stops all progress until you drop the title. This is doubly true of very
manifest magickal traditions. For example, claiming to be a wandering bishop when
you are not may not have a detrimental effect as the benefits of that evolve
quite slowly. On the other hand, claiming to be a third degree British Traditional
Wiccan when you are not even a first can manifest almost immediately.
** Still very difficult to avoid as you can tell by a
statement above.
Saturday, December 19, 2020
Wards - Protecting Yourself and Your Home
A ward is simply a protection or guardian. This post is in
response to a question about household wards but it basically applies to
everything.
What do wards protect you from?
1.
Your own fears: Most people that I know had some
fear of attracting evil with their magick when they were first getting started.
That fear in and off itself can stop your practice before it starts. Having
some protection in place just may ease a person’s mind long enough to take a
few steps along the magickal path.
2.
Random people: A decent household protection can
ward off door-to-door salesman and criminals that have no reason to burglarize
your particular home. The former doesn’t appear to be much of a problem any
more but at one time salesman were an annoyance. As for the later, the ward is basically a lock
they cannot see. Your home may simply look less attractive to them or they just
may make a random decision to keep moving.
3.
Random spirits: Spirits move about just like
people. Often, they are not barred by locked doors and the like and will just
pass through your home. Most of the time, they go unnoticed. Yet, in a magician’s
home, they just may hang around for the ambient energy. Who likes uninvited
unknown house guests?
4.
Magickal Attacks: I was taught that no one that
knows how to attack you will because they are too spiritual to do so. Well
well-meaning and something that can be taught to tamp down any suspicions within
a group. This is likely the most harmful thing I was ever taught. Magick users
are humans and so are you. Eventually, someone will get angry with you whether
you deserve it or not. Sooner or later, someone will throw some negative magick
in your direction. Such things can result in problems ranging from annoyance to
the quite serious.
5.
Not-So-Random People: Some people have enemies
that are willing to be criminally physical. A strong ward can deflect, distract
or even harm these people before they get into your home. Such a word may also
get the police there faster as well.
6.
Your Own Mistakes: Sometimes practitioners call
a spirit and do not dismiss it correctly. Other times, something gets out of
hand. Some wards can fight these things off for you or at least weaken their impact.
I am sure that is not an exhaustive
list but that should be a good start.
There are several types of wards energetic,
physical, natural, spirit and spiritual.
Energetic wards are by far the
easiest to put up. Beginners simply use their active imagination and visualize
energies at appropriate places in the home such as doors, windows, entry gates
and the like. When I was at this stage, I preferred red crosses and spider web
forms on the windows. Doors require a lot of maintenance because they get a lot
of normal use. Very few people enter and leave their house through windows.
My problem is that I could not see
my own work. So, I had friends that had the ability look for me. The were able
to describe the shape of my wards to my satisfaction. Then they could tell me
if they had been tampered with, broken or had weakened over time. Obviously,
these did not protect me from things that broke through but likely did for
random passersby.
While these can be the weakest
form of protection do not underestimate their utility. This type of ward can
easily discourage random spirits and people that have no real personal interest
in you or your property. They can also be extremely effective against people
that are very sensitive to energy, such as empaths.
Physical wards at their non-magickal
level are locks, closed doors, burglar alarms and the like. There are also other
forms of wards with a physical basis. Perhaps you energies a sword you have hanging
on a wall facing an entrance. Maybe it is a statue of your deity to which you have
cared for, kept dust free and made offerings before. This can also be a
talisman or other item created for the purpose. These types of things can become
more sentient and active than a passive energy ward.
Natural wards are live plants,
herbs, stones, minerals and crystals that have protective properties. These can
simply be placed near doors and windows. You do not need to do much magick for
these. I simply tell them what I want them to do but you may not even need
that.
Spirit wards are defenses supplied
by spirits one conjures or creates (servitors). These can be extremely strong
against pretty much everything. Spirits from the Lesser Key of Solomon can be
extremely effective. The problem is they can come off as a bit creepy as well.
Their energy signature can be unpleasant. Angels and the like can enforce some
pretty rigid thinking. So, you need a bit of experience to make these work
effectively.
If you are up against strong
practitioners, here is a little trick. Make several servitors. Instructions on
how to do this are outside the scope of this post. Using creative instructions
can confuse the heck out of your attackers. For example, Spirit A protects the
home on odd calendar days, Spirit B on even days and Spirit C augments on
Fridays and Saturdays when most people have the time to get up to no good.
Since most people do not attack every day, each time they come to your home
they get a different guardian. They may come prepared for the first one they
encounter and find something else. Yikes!
Spirits can also advise you and
unique techniques to ward your home. The most effective ward I ever made came
from this sort of advice. This is one I keep in my secret bag of tricks not
because I am all that secretive but when it comes to protection it is wise to
have some surprises.
Spiritual wards are just that. A deity
that you work with or worship consistently combined with a physical anchor can
be very effective. Your soul, properly aligned and actively energized can be
impenetrable. Again, how to do that is beyond the scope of this post.
See this post about my favorite
protective strategy.
If you do magick, heck, even if you do not do magick, you need some warding. Hopefully, this post will get you started.
Tuesday, December 8, 2020
Do Acts of Magick or Intuitions Attract Evil?
This is the last post in the series to my step daughter.*
Sometimes, people that are new to magickal practices come
into the shop, buy a fixed candle or other item, and ask me if just doing
something like that is dangerous. Will evil things find me? I always answer no.
On the rare cases when I see a danger, I tell the person.
I am never comfortable with a yes or no answer to that question.
The short answer is no. A single act of magick is very
unlikely to attract anything that isn’t already there. Sometimes, a single or frequent
acts of magick can create the illusion of attracting something negative. The
illusion is hard to explain without scaring the daylights out of people. They
only hear the first few words and their fears drown out the rest. So, take a
breath and relax.
An effective act of magick, at the very least, opens the veils
between worlds a little bit. It is technically possible for some lower-level astral
creature to take notice and get up to something. This is not the norm. More often
than not, people become aware of something that has always existed and blame
the magick for creating the problem. The problem was always there. Magick
simply expanded the person’s awareness.
Hypothetical Example: A person does magick to get some
money. Suddenly, they are in a car accident. The damage is less than their $1,000
deductible. Something happens at work and they lose a few hours a week causing
a financial squeeze. People blame the magick for ‘bad luck’. In reality, they
had a large deductible before they even thought about magick. Large deductibles
can be a good financial move if you have the deductible amount in savings. As
far as losing some hours at work, they were already financially on the edge. That
is why they did magick in the first place. Sometimes, magick teaches us what we
need to fix.
We could blame the magick or think that perhaps taking a
weekend job for six month to put some money in savings which is a buffer against
losing hours and the deductible. Magickal lessons are often life lessons. If
you do those things and then realize you are less stressed. Perhaps you get the
bug and start reading about money and how to handle it.
Hypothetical Example: A person does love magick to bolster
their relationship. Suddenly, a series of arguments break out and the relationship
ends. If the practitioner looks back, the subject of the arguments was nothing new.
Years later, she may look back and realize she dodged a bullet when that man
left. All that happened was the magick added passion to an already shaky
situation. The emotions boiled over. Better sooner than later.
Hypothetical Example. The same scenario but now glimpses of
a mean face are seen out the corner of the eyes. Some things go bump in the
night. Holy cow! The magick opened the door to some dark force! Well, that
cannot be eliminated. On the other hand, that force may be the reason the magick
was needed in your love life in the first place. Perhaps, the mean man has been
there for a lot longer than you realized. The magick revealed the problem. Isn’t
that a good thing? Now, you know what you need to deal with.
It is possible for totally random ‘things’ to drop on you
from the astral when you do magick. A regular practitioner does need protection
from these things. On a one-off act of
magick, usually, that is not the case.
When it comes to intuitives there is a greater danger.
Intuitives live between the worlds anyway. That is why their intuitions work.
When you spend a lot of time between the worlds, the chances of negative forces
attaching increase. Why? Because most of the time people live like this live
just above the surface of this world. Which, is the bottom of the next world.
Gravity still applies. Muck descends.
The best protection is to stay out of low-vibe places like
bars, adult book stores, drug infested neighborhoods, and dance-clubs that are
mostly meat markets.
The next level of protection is the wearing of certain
stones, smudging oneself and the home and keeping cleansing stones and herbs
around the house.
The last level is learning to do some basic defensive magick.
Magick can create some problems but those problems are
usually already existing and thus simply revealed by magick. While not always
the case, that is a better place to start looking than some scary evil force.
Intuitives, often quite afraid of magick, need protective magick more than the occasional
magick user
*She is actually my step-daughter. I even get undeserved but
appreciated Father’s Day cards. Sometimes, I am just oblivious and think of
things like being related by marriage as in in-law.
Sunday, December 6, 2020
Is Being a Psychic or Intuitive Dangerous to Self or Other?
I may not be the most qualified person to write this. I cannot claim to being an empath or psychic. With rare exception, my psychic insights occur when I am focused on the person I am reading for. A couple months ago, I was able to describe a scene from my client’s childhood in great detail. Things like that are rarely a problem because I am seeking to have that experience and pass it on to another. I am not usually hit with an intuition or feel someone else’s emotions while walking down the street. Empaths or Psychics are not asking. They just see, hear, feel or receive input that usually has deep emotional connections.
Simply receiving information cannot possibly harm another.
That is the good news.
The biggest issues with psychics/intuitives doing harm falls
into two categories, hurting themselves and others.
Psychics, especially new ones, often have a trouble distinguishing
their intuition from their emotions. This turns an insecurity that could be dealt
with to an externalized ‘fact’. The person on the other end of that fact has no
chance of disproving the ‘intuition’. This can destroy relationships that otherwise
would have worked out fine. Thus, harming both parties.
The way to prevent this is to follow the advice of the Oracle
at Delphi, Know Thyself. Knowing what your insecurities are, how you normally
feel and the like goes a long way to help judge between feelings and intuitions.
If you are normally insecure when speaking while eating and you feel insecure
on a dinner date, it may be best to chalk that up to yourself rather than an
intuition about your date. If you do not normally feel that way and you
suddenly do, chalk it up to intuition.
You are going to be wrong once in a while until you really
figure things out. So, record your intuitions in writing along with the
circumstances you were in when you felt them. Later go a back and figure out
which intuitions were correct.
So, act on your own intuitions first. Carefully assess the
results and slowly build confidence. Do not foist them on others until you have
good reason to be confident in yourself.
You can harm others in the same way. By insisting your
intuition is correct, you can cause people to break up, become medically
paranoid or who knows what. Don’t share until you have a handle on it. When I
pray, I pray that my teachings land light as a feather on the hearts and minds
of others. Cultivate that attitude when revealing them.
I am amazed how willing people are to change their lives
around when I give a psychic reading. I am equally amazed when the absolutely know
I am right and others have told them the same thing and they refuse to change.
Once you share an intuition you cannot own other people’s response. Let them
live without your interference.
Intuitives/empaths and the like do have personal issues.
They can feel other people’s emotions so strongly that it messes with their
heads. I have walked by and felt a human predator once. The emotion and my
response to it were disconcerting and it lasted for a day and a half. I feel
for those that go through that on the regular.
The trick is to learn how to shield and psychically protect
yourself. Even learning a little protection magick is a help. You cannot harm
people with protection magick unless they are trying to harm you.
People in this category at their worst are much less
dangerous than magick users. So, I wouldn’t worry about doing harm overmuch but
it is good to keep the above in mind. That last little bit out shielding and
protecting is important. I highly recommend becoming proficient in those skills.
Saturday, December 5, 2020
Safely Manifesting Magick
This is Part II of How Magick Manifests
I left the last post with two questions. What happens when
there is no path of least resistance? And, does the fact that we cannot predict
where magick will manifest make it dangerous?
The answer to these questions is it depends upon the
operator but yes, magick is inherently dangerous. So is driving a car, owning a
gun and the poisonous cleaners we have in our homes. All of these things are
more of a danger in some people’s hands than others.
Manifesting safe magick is a matter of the skill, experience
and humility of the operater. Skill is the ability to do the magick. Experience
is just like anyone else’s. Though, the lessons have to be learned a bit faster
when it comes to manifesting in a safe manner. Humility means recognizing
things that could be done better and making no excuses for error. A humble
magician does not repeat mistakes out of a need to prove she was right the
first time if some unknown factor had not crept in to the working. If the
practitioner was right the first time, the ‘mistake’ would not have happened.
There are several principles I employ to keep my magick safe
1.
Never heat a closed circuit
2.
Use the right tool for the job
3.
Use a proper approach
4.
Word spells properly
5. Never
magick a child or pregnant woman
Never Heat a Closed Circuit
This basic fact was taught in my 9th grade Intro
to Physical Science class. With a closed circuit the heat and gases have no
place to go. This will cause your lab equipment to explode. The same is true
with magick.
A closed circuit is a situation where magick has no place to
go. This most likely time for this to occur is when attacking another person
with magick but it can and does happen when the magick is intended to be
helpful or benevolent.
A hypothetical example would be a man that wants to meet a girlfriend
but is unemployed, rarely leaves his apartment, is not on social networking
apps and does not have a wide circle of friends. This leaves the magick with no
place to go. If he had no talent, he is likely fine. If he has some talent,
nothing will happen. If he has a lot of talent, he will heat a closed circuit and
the magick will explode. Perhaps, he falls down the stairs of his apartment complex
and the rehab nurse takes a shine to him. I have related my real-life experience
when I heated a closed circuit.
To prevent this, I make sure that the magick has someplace
to go. In the example above, I would insist on applying for jobs, going to
church and/or joining some sort of hobby club before I would do the magick. This
way the magick not only has someplace to move but a wider path to success. So,
even someone of some talent can get a result.
Using the Right Tool for the Job
There are spirits of the Lesser Key of Solomon that are said
to heal. Those spirits are called demons by many. While that name can be
debated, the term does aptly describe the danger of working with them. The very
nature of these spirits seems to preclude healing. I would be very unlikely to use
one except in situations where it is life and death and nothing else worked.
Instead, I would use a spirit of Jupiter. Or, depending upon the illness, something
related to the elements. I may use water for a blood ailment, for example.
In a similar fashion, if I needed a job, I would not call on
a war deity like Mars. While I can definitely see some benefits, that may be
like using a sledge hammer to drive a finishing nail. I can imagine Mars
creating strife within a company to the point someone gets fired, leaving a job
open. Yet, I wouldn’t want to work there if that happened. The strife would linger
and the work environment would be war-torn.
Instead, I may call upon Hermes (for commerce and trade) or
Hephestus (for trade craft). I may even approach a spirit of earth or the
spirits of the Prince or King of Pentacles.
The point being is that there are many ways to get things done
that will work but the practitioner must be smart enough to avoid creating a
disaster by a poor choice of tools.
Use a Proper Approach
Sometimes magick takes precision and a lack thereof could
result in disaster.
Imagine a marriage where there is a violent domestic
situation. Two people must be separated for sake of the child. Magick could be
done for outside intervention. The problem is that outside intervention may
arrive as a concerned neighbor, another family member or a cop responding to a
domestic violence call. That cop may have to shoot a parent in front of the
child. Or, as leaving is the most dangerous part of such scenarios, the abuser
ends up beating or otherwise harming the concerned neighbor.
Working internally to push the two apart where they have
nothing but each other to blame, may reduce the chances of tragedy. Imagine if
the abuser just gets totally bored with his victim or falls out of whatever kind
of so-called ‘love’ held for the other. While still a dangerous situation, this
approach is less dangerous.
An experienced magician can reduce the danger by being wise
in her approach to a problem.
Word the Spells Properly
There is an old joke about a hungry man that finds a genie in
a bottle. The genie grants him three wishes. The man says, “Make me a ham
sandwich.” Poof! The man turns into a ham sandwich. There is a grain of truth here.
I have known many a magician to get exactly what was asked for and been sorely
disappointed.
I recall asking for something, seeing the spell work but not
manifest correctly. I used a dictionary and looked up a word I used and the tertiary
definition fit perfectly and meant something significantly different from the
first two! From that point forward, I have made liberal use of the dictionary
when crafting spells. Imagine someone
looking for a job and coming up with spell wording.
Manifest employment that lasts three years.
Manifest employment for me that lasts at least three years
doing a job that I am neutral about or enjoy.
Manifest employment for me that lasts as long as I want to
work there, that I enjoy, and allows me to save $500 a month.
The first statement could result in signing a contract for a
three-year temporary job that you hate and doesn’t pay well! The result would feel
like a prison term. Risking misery fits my definition of unsafe magick.
Also, since ‘for me’ wasn’t included. My best friend may
land the job while I am still unemployed.
The second is better in at least we will not be miserable.
The job may last longer than three years as well. This is handy if a recession
hits in year two. With the first spell you are definitely unemployed in three
years. The second may let you hang on even in tough economic times.
The benefits of the last spell or obvious but with those
restrictions the spell may have a harder time finding a way to manifest. You
better be networking, have resume’s in the mail and improving yourself in any way
you can.
Never Magick a Child or Pregnant Woman
Children and pregnant people have a natural magickal protection.
You may as well try to curse a goddess. Good luck. The best you can expect is nothing
happening. The worse is more than the full force of your magick landing in your
lap. Boom!
The exception is healing magick but still care is needed. A
pregnant woman’s defenses are formidable.
We started this with the question, is the fact that we
cannot predict where magick will flow make it inherently dangerous? My answer
is no. Magick can be dangerous. Mistakes can be made. And, the best of spells
can go awry. That said, a great deal of danger can be nullified by wise
practices. I can recall times in the last decade when my magick did not work. I
cannot recall a single dangerous outcome over that time period.
Next time: Is just being psychic but not doing magick
dangerous in and of itself?
Below is my real-life example of heating a closed circuit.
Example of Heating a Closed Circuit
One of my first successful spells was one to “give me a job
that will keep me financially secure for life.” I am forever grateful that one
worked. However, I had not yet applied for work, had no real marketable skills,
nor education and my past jobs did not contain a seed of a financially
successful future.
The magick found the one path open to it, a job I wasn’t
hired for a year before. They needed more help and all three people at the
company, all family, took credit for remembering that I was going to be hired
before the fellow hired his son-in-law. The day after I did the magick I
received a call and was hired. This was another dead-end job.
So the magick wasn’t done. To complete the spell, it had to
break through all the negative inertia of my job history. There was no place to
go. My magick exploded. I severely
injured my back on that job to the point that I had to take two-inch steps for
two years. To force myself to walk and move, I bought one day of groceries at a
time. It took an hour and half to walk through the grocery store in agony. The
job didn’t wait for me.
As I began to heal, I volunteered for Ross Perot’s petition
drive. From there, I ran the Fresno Clinton/Gore ground operation. There I met
a soon to be state assemblyman. During his campaign, I met his best friend.
When I applied for real jobs no one would touch me with a
wonky back. The County government would. I was offered a job by every
department because I blew out the entry level test. I ended up working below
the politician’s best friend. I was promoted several times. I left that
department for the job I worked until I retired. The spell completed.
I was also left with a horrendous amount of unexplainable
back pain for the rest of my life.
That happened because as a rookie, I generated enough power
to create enough magickal kinetic energy to move things forward. If I didn’t
have the talent to raise that much energy, the spell would have ended at that
first job. That magick was dangerous because of my inexperience. If I had it to
do over again, I would have applied for a lot more jobs before doing the magick
or at least registered for college
Thursday, December 3, 2020
How Magick Manifests
Not long ago, I tested Spirit. I said, “Tell me something I do not know about some people I do know.” I learned something about my friend Jenny’s cooking habits. And, I learned my daughter-in-law (DIL), is “consciously aware of a small fear of you.” I contacted them both and told them I needed an honest answer because I was confirming a new level of communication that I was experiencing. A magician that doesn’t test his sources is on the road to self-deception. Both women confirmed the facts I received.
Over a couple of weeks, it was hard to pin down my DIL’s fear. I inquired of spirit again, not to get a direct answer but, to learn a better way of communicating with her. I could have asked for a direct answer but I am also interested in relationship building and chose this direction. I was given a question to ask her. I asked, “Is your fear regarding magick that it is non-linear or do you fear that the source may be unholy?” She replied “Non-Linear”. I am writing this in hopes of sharing with her how magick works.
In the West, we are trained to believe in the linear, logic, scientific assessment (unless it is vaccinations or climate change) and the like. We are comfortable with things having a reason for happening. If you pause long enough to look at it, we are imposing a world view upon a reality that does not correspond well with what we like to believe. While the universe can be seen as mechanical and perhaps is at times, magick and life are both a bit messier.
Mechanically, we can explain what happened to get that young boy killed by a train near Christmas Tree Lane a couple of days ago. His mother pulled forward thinking she was far enough off the tracks. She felt her vehicle move as if it had descended from the danger zone. She heard the frantic horn blasts but didn’t think it was for her. She misjudged by a foot. The train slammed into the car costing the young boy his life. Terrible. Mechanically that is a solid explanation.
What does it leave out? How did she misperceive the car’s position on the tracks? Why did her mind tell her the whistles could be ignored? How did it come to pass that the family chose that day and time to visit the attraction? Why was that boy in the backseat versus the other child? How did the train arrive at just that time? We could probably find a mechanical answer for each question. Yet what happened was but one variation to an infinite number of scenarios where that event did not occur. Why did that event happen at all? And, at the time, it was so surprising, so unexpected, that it certainly felt non-linear to the poor mother driving the van. The boy’s father is going to have a reaction too. Will the marriage survive? Maybe or maybe not but, and here is the rub, whichever way it goes could be explained by a mechanical answer. Cause and effect. How can a mechanical answer be applied after the fact but not before? We should know what he is going to do before he does acts. If the universe behaved in a direct logical line, the future would be predictable in the short term.
The linear view is simply our own projection. That is not a description of how life really works.
Magick and life both work via the application of pressure moving a fluid through its natural course. In short, magick and life flow like water. This is easier to see with magick than with life so we will start there but first, simple fluid dynamics.
Think of a spilled glass of water on a dining room table. The pressure is the kinetic energy of the water moving in the direction the glass was tipped. From there, that natural flow of water is towards gravity along the path of least resistance. If the table is ever so slightly uneven leaning to the west, once the kinetic force dissipates the water will flow in a westerly direction. It will not, cannot ascend upward on the table. When it comes to the seam where the leaf could be inserted that crack becomes the path of least resistance. The liquid will not, cannot, hop over the crack and continue flowing west. Following its draw toward gravity and finding a new path of least resistance, flows down the crack and drops to the floor. If that area of the floor is ever so slightly uneven descending to the north, the water accumulates until it creates is own pressure and flows northward. The water cannot and will not go south.
Magick works exactly the same way.
If I do magick for a job that magick will follow its path to ground (manifest) along the path of least resistance. For simplicity’s sake, lets say that I have a lot of friends, three of them are in the industry I want to work in and I have put in twelve job applications so far. Most of the time I will predict that the magick will naturally flow to a place that a) has a job opening b) has my application in hand and c) a place where one of my friends has some influence in hiring. Rarely does it work out that way.
The influence of magick normally finds a weak point (path of least resistance) in ways we humans do not perceive until after the magick happens. In the case above, someone at my current job may have a friend that works in the industry. During a chat his friend mentions that he is looking for someone and knowing I am trying to change careers my coworker suggests me. No one else is even aware the job is open and no one else is interviewed. The magick influence one and only one conversation, the path of least resistance.
Magick appears to be non-linear but it follows the basic rules of fluid dynamics. Again, we just don’t know what that path is from our human perspective.
What happens when there is no path? Does our inability to spot the path of manifestation make magick dangerous? Stay tuned for Part 2.
Monday, November 30, 2020
Mystical Memory
I use the word communion. Not meditation. When I commune, I am engaging with the universe in a personal way, much like in real life. To my understanding, meditation is a different skill set.
I suppose two or three years have passed since I took Jason Miller’s outstanding course on Hekate. During that course, my communion skills increased to an annoying level. The annoyance was that I would get to a place with great visuals that was obviously communication with otherworldly spirits but the scene would change in an instant. This caused me to forget not only what I was just told but who was doing the telling, the context and location. This was much like waking up knowing you had an important dream but not remembering any part of the experience. Since that time, I have been working on a solution.
About six months ago, I hit on something important. Now, I
have a tried and true system for resolving this problem. While this does take
some practice, the process is simple to remember.
The first step is paying attention to the location. Notice
several objects in the scene. Last night, the objects were furnishings in my
what a ceremonial magician would call his astral temple, a table, an object on
that table, and the design of the carpet.
The second step is harder. Immediately when one realizes the
scene has changed, focus on those objects until one is back in the original
space. Do not try to return to the space. Instead, focus only on the objects.
When you think of a place you are in that place. Once you have returned to the
space, immediately recall everything that led up to the switch.
While I am not going to relate last night’s communion, that
may go something like this. I arrived in the temple, the moon was obscured by
clouds, a voice emanated from a rock that told me that my attitude regarding my
family situation was incorrect. I was told to see only a few facts and then I
would see my brother’s perspective. Then I encountered a wispy apparition that
floated through the space saying, “See without your eyes, interpret without
thoughts.”
I have found it more effective when I focus on repeating
everything encountered up to the change in scene at least twice. When I do
that, I find myself back in the same place I started and the communion stays on
point. When I do not, the rest of the experience is like a dream, disjointed
and easily forgotten.
When one is in the same place, the communication doesn’t pick
up where it left off. The experience is more akin to leaving a conversation at
a cocktail party and then returning. Sometimes, you have to direct things back
to when you stepped out in order to catch up.
Last night, during an hour and half communion, I did this
around five or six times, maybe more. When I came back to normal consciousness,
I recalled four items of interest and immediately wrote them down. As I
prepared for bed, I recalled one more that had been on the tip of my memory but
I couldn’t quite bring the thought forward. Four of these items were of serious
import, one was curious. Recalling four items of import that I could take away
from the experience is a huge win.
By focusing on the location and the linear time line of
events during the communion time, my memory of events that occur in alternate
states of consciousness improves. I would love it if someone reading this that
has the same problem would practice this technique and let me know if it worked
for them.
Saturday, November 14, 2020
Your Thoughts Matter
Mystics receive messages in many ways. Sometimes, it is by observing coincidences. Other times, it simply being self-aware enough to know you are missing something bigger and looking for it. We have dreams. Then again, there is the famous ‘download’ of information that psychics talk about that leads them to doing a specific technique. We have leaps of thought in mediation that lead us in various directions. Sometimes, we are plainly instructed by the powers themselves.
All of that falls under the heading of unverified personal
gnosis. These leaps of intuition can rarely be linked to some known fact and
when they can, no one takes the link seriously. That is likely a good thing.
Such information is meant for the practitioner alone. Sometimes, a cool thing
happens and several people get the same message. Sometimes, we are simply
instructed.
The rarest thing of all are messages for other people. If a
mystic just randomly tells you s/he has a message for you that you didn’t ask
for, there is a 99% chance their ego is interfering. In this case, I believe I
stumbled upon a truth that would be good for the world to hear. That may be my
ego. That may be the truth.
I experienced a series of dreams that repeatedly demonstrated
the same message. I was shown over and over again how holding onto a memory or
perspective about someone else is the equivalent of putting them in a cage with
themselves. The person cannot change or has a much more difficult time doing so
because someone else deeply believes they are the person they have always been.
Another word for this cage is a shell. The term as taught to
me included every ‘bad’ action one performed in life. Over time, I expanded
this to include incorrect perceptions that colored my viewpoint. I have never
seen anyone write that shells are also created and maintained by others.
Let us suppose you know someone that has stolen from their
employer multiple times. Over the years, you have lost touch. If your memory of
them includes the idea that they steal from their employer, it is that much
harder for them to turn over a new leaf. If that memory contains a belief that
those actions define the person, you add a layer of bars to their cage. If you
think of someone as a manipulator, womanizer, mean-spirited, psycho, a bad
driver, a push over or anything else the same thing happens.
I believe this is really what forgiveness is about.
Forgiving isn’t about condoning the act but accepting that the event happened.
The next step is releasing the person from one’s perception that the act
defines them. This allows the person to redefine themselves. The embezzler may
just become the most honest employee ever because s/he does not want to feel like
a thief ever again.
The reverse is also true. If your ‘knowledge’ of someone is
that they can overcome their weakness or have a special talent or anything else
positive, that makes it easier for the person to open that door to great
things.
So, it is incumbent upon myself to give up all thoughts of
people I have not known for over a year.
How is this done? I plan on using what I recall as a
Buddhist meditation where one ‘sees’ his own body decompose in death. My plan
is to switch that up and see people I know from the past behaving according to
my perceptions and then watching that image decompose until there is nothing
left. That will free people from the cage I have built for them. This will give
them a chance to walk out of the cage they created for themselves.
These cages do not have to be the same. Perceptions of
others and the self are often incomplete and incorrect. Mine included. People
build their own cages from guilt, insecurity, how others taught them to see
themselves, life experiences etc. From this point forward, I am making an
effort to release all the cages I have created for others.
Monday, November 2, 2020
Abandon the Gods!
When I was a baby Pagan circa 2001, most Pagans I knew
claimed allegiance to one deity or another. Some said they had relationships
with several deities but had one primary. Others, mostly Wiccans or witches,
claimed a generic god and goddess. Now, or so I have read and experienced in
the shop, a lot of younger Pagans eschew gods altogether. Those I have spoken
to cite how horrible they have seen ‘religion’ manifest on other paths. For the
most part, that means conservative Christianity. This is flawed and reactionary
reasoning.
When I worked for local government, the paid time off
structure was so good it was nearly European. In addition to that, if people had
PTO to spare, they could donate it to newer employees who suddenly fell ill. A
couple of painters abused that privilege by figuring out an angle to take
advantage of the process. The reactionary thinking from the powers that be was
to stop the donation process, cut the amount of PTO given and other draconian
measures. That took no thinking and no effort. It may have been slightly more
work to close the loophole that was exploited and deal with the scofflaws that
scammed the system. That work proved too
much for those in charge. Depriving others because a small group of people took
advantage is both lazy and demonstrates a lack of sympathy towards others.
People who followed the rules were punished because of the actions of other
parties. This is a flawed way to make decisions and such methods serve no one.
The proper term is ‘a failure of leadership.’
Turning away from the gods because a completely different
religion manifests in obviously problematic ways embodies that same easy out
approach to life. That path leads to mastery of nothing and deprives the
practitioner of enriching relationships. It amounts to a failure of personal sovereignty
as one gives up something of value because of the failings of another.
The first thing we have to think on is the difference
between exoteric religion and esoteric spirituality. In the former, one is expected to believe in
someone else’s esoteric experience having never so much as met the person in
question. Once belief is instilled, a power structure is created and becomes
socially enforced. In esoteric spiritual practices, the practitioner
experiences the divine for herself. There is no power structure between the
practitioner and the gods. Thus, the abuses and controlling behavior we see on
other paths cannot occur.
Note, I am talking about an individual practitioner, not
group work.
So what is a god? My perception of deity is that gods are
wholly perfect unto themselves. They exist in a state of perfectly fulfilling
their own nature. For example, Hermes is the god of movement. He is the patron
of travelers, news, communication, commerce and thieves. He is able to move as
well and does so anywhere He likes. Unlike most Greek deities He can travel to
Olympus, this world, and Hades. When he
is in the Plutonic realms, you do not see him carrying off riches for his own
use, the skulls of the dead etc. When he is in Olympus he does not declare a
golden chair his own and cart it off to his dwelling. Those things do not move
on their own.
The closest example I know in the human realm is a baseball
player named Ichiro Suzuki. When he gets up in the morning he exercises. Then
he eats. Then he reads about exercise and nutrition, then he practices
baseball. When that is done, he does general fitness work and reads more about
baseball, fitness and diet. Everything the man did revolved around being an
athlete and specifically a baseball player. He had no other hobbies, interests,
etc.
Encountering deity exposes one to similar purity at an
intuitional level. This can lead one to the desire further purify oneself and
allow one to be more willing to jettison that which does not align with the
true nature of the person. Even if the practitioner only does that a couple of
times, she is much further ahead of the game than the average person. There is
value in approaching the gods.
If a person does not want to approach the gods, that is one
thing. If they do not do so because of the fear of recreating the failures of a
wildly differing path, then perhaps they may be seeing a reflection of
themselves. That fear of being the abuser may be the first thing that must be
rooted out. The source of that fear is unlikely what one thinks it may be.
Often the core issue is only vaguely related to how it manifests.
I do not believe that the only path to spirituality lies through contact with the gods. Only, that such contact is helpful to many that sincerely walk the path. I do advocate investigating the process without rejecting it out of hand.
Friday, October 30, 2020
Asking For Help Through Prayer
Assuming you understand something about yourself is not in alignment with your soul, praying to get rid of that trait is unlikely to work. Only the gods know how often I prayed to be relieved of my anger and the impact it had on others. There are a couple of reasons why I feel those prayers were not answered.
First of all, I asked the deities in question to do
something for me. I put all the work on them. That is like asking for help
cleaning your home before a big event and sipping tea while watching all your
friends do the work, not wise behavior.
The second reason is a bit more subtle. My anger was not the
problem but a symptom. Had the gods granted my petition, I’d still be saddled
with the same problem in another form. Perhaps, that new form would be harder
to identify.
A great deal of my problem was perspective or a lack
thereof. To me, whatever issue I was going on about was obvious for all to see.
While I never thought this, my attitude was that people were willfully doing
wrong. After all, if you can see the problem, yet act to perpetuate the issue,
you are twice as wrong!
Once my perspective changed to one where I believe most
people are doing their best most of the time, my need to express my anger
lessened a great deal. Instead, I was saddened, not enraged. Attacking my anger
directly was precisely the wrong approach.
Had the gods granted my request and removed my anger, they
would have removed my ability to see what is out of alignment with the divine
flow. That would seriously harm my personal spiritual progress as noticing that
allows me to remove that which interferes. It would also have harmed my ability
to help people that ask for my assistance. “That is wrong,” is met with
resistance. “How would you react to that if you were on the other side,” is met
with contemplation. As is, “When you do that, what energy is manifesting?”
Solving the first issue is easy. When you pray, ask for
help. Help me resolve my problem with anger, is much better than, take
away my anger. The gods will give you clues to resolve the problem, that is
the help. Your cooperation is spotting those clues and acting on them. You’d be
surprise how easy it is to change when you follow the bread crumbs long enough
to find the path. Change is as easy as putting one foot in front of the other.
Solving the second problem is just as easy. By not
identifying precisely how you want the help to manifest, you leave room for the
universe to provide you with the answer you need, not an answer you demand.
You may be given an extra boon. I have found that many of
the things I and others have asked to be removed were simply misapplications of
proper energy. For example, a person’s need to drink may be born of a need to
relieve emotional pain, an understandable goal. Yet actually healing the wound
resolves the problem in a much more substantive way. The drinker applies the drive for healing in
an improper way. The modality is the problem, not the need to feel better.
This is important so another example is warranted. The
person that cheats on his spouse may be looking for acceptance from others,
even though his spouse offers the same. The problem is that the person does not
accept himself. No amount of acceptance from others will resolve that. Instead,
he must learn that he is worthy of his own love. Seeking acceptance from others
is an incorrect manifestation of the energy of love. Love sought directly from
others is nearly always a slight miss. Love yourself fully and one has love to
give. That love is joyfully returned.
Love yourself enough to ask for help. Love yourself enough
to notice the universe’s reply. Love yourself enough to act on those messages. You
will find the path.
Sunday, October 25, 2020
Things Not to Do
Back when dinosaurs ruled the earth, before most of us had heard the term global warming and cell phones were relatively new, I told a friend of mine that my Holy Guardian Angel (HGA) often arrived in dreams in the form of a police officer. My friend, a policeman, was taken aback and asked why. At the time, I interpreted his response as a negative but never asked for clarification.
When the officer appeared, the instructions were always the
same. Stop doing that! This is obviously a major role of police officers. Jay
walking? Stop. Robbing a house? Stop. Selling drugs to children? Stop. Stop in
the name of the law!
Here the law in question is not civil or moral. The law in
personal and natural. The law is unique to the way an individual’s soul needs
to manifest and cannot be projected onto others, a classic mistake of exoteric
religion. The process is also part of the natural unfolding of one’s spiritual
nature. Following this law is required of all spiritual seekers that wish to
ascend and embody a higher nature than has currently manifested.
I write this today because I have been reading The Complete
Book of Ceremonial Magick, shockingly available at The Open Eye and came across
this tidbit in the writings of Sam Webster. “Socrates claimed to be guided by
his personal daemon, mostly being told what not to do.” Sam goes on to claim
this is an obvious reference to the HGA. This struck me as true.
When I looked back at my life, my HGA consistently told me
to stop a few things in life. The better I was at not doing those things, the
more progress I made.
Jumping to the conclusion that the HGA is a moral compass
and is the same as our conscience is understandable but misguided. Our conscience
is largely a construct of what we have been taught is right and wrong. This
teaching is of social value as it keeps society under some sense of order.
Keeping a family unit together is of obvious value to
society as a whole and therefore an extra-marital affair is deemed immoral.
Interestingly, the French, ever practical when it comes to human sexual
behavior, enter marriage with the near expectation of an affair as long as it
is not thrown in the spouse’s face or otherwise embarrasses him or her. Again,
this is an obvious practical way of keeping the family unit together. Morals
are societally dependent and not divinely commanded.
A lot of Pagans and other spiritual people struggle with the
challenges of the bodily demand for sexual activity. I have seen the gamut from
abstinence to promiscuity of truly impressive proportions and everything in
between. Absolutely none of that actually matters. What matters is what
interferes with the connection between soul and manifest personality. That harm
can occur anywhere on the spectrum and is totally unique to the individual. So,
one’s HGA may issue a stop order basically demanding an end of abstinence,
multiple partners, a given type of partner or even a thought that is never
acted upon. Again, these orders are simply to further align one spiritually,
nor moral judgement is made or implied.
Back in the day I struggled with expressions of anger.
Thankfully, acts of violence were not part of my problem. I realized today that
my HGA never once instructed me to get over my anger as so many humans did. I
was not even told to adjust my behavior as far as expressing my anger. While
curbing my anger had beneficial social applications, it did nothing to aid or
hinder my spiritual growth. In looking back, I am wondering if the things I was
angry at were primarily lessons in what not to do myself. If I am angry with X
for doing Y, then I ought not to do X. That sounds like a reasonable
interpretation to me.
The problem there was that anger also manifested in
conversations that had nothing to do any behavior I would engage in. Such anger
was obviously damaging socially. My thought is that my HGA was not concerned
with social relationships in the least.
So, what is the purpose of obeying these edicts of the HGA?
Unlike the assumptions of those that have not had what is called Knowledge and
Conversation of the HGA, the process of the Great Work does not end there.
Instead, this is the beginning of work toward Knowledge and Conversation with
the soul. Which again is a beginning for the Great Action, which is behaving in
accordance with the union of personality and soul.
To this end, the HGA does not normally tell one what to do.
The things one does that fall into alignment with the soul are already being
done at some level and simply need refinement. Those actions, at least for me,
moved from ham-fisted to elegant. When I am not elegant in my interactions, I
am slightly off. This is easily recognizable within. That recognition is the
only correction really necessary.
Elegant actions give birth to obvious results.
So, what are you not supposed to do? That which does not
align with your soul. How do you know what those things are? Well now, that is
why it is called the Great Work. Learning what is and what is not in alignment
with your soul takes hard work, introspection and observation. There is a
reason why the Oracle at Delphi’s famous entreaty is still famous. “Know
Thyself”. Stay tuned to this space on how to find out what not to do.
Wednesday, October 21, 2020
The Secret is a True Lie
I encounter a lot of folks that have read The Secret. I am always hit with the same analogy. If you go to the mail box expecting nothing but bills, you will find nothing but bills. What you think, manifests. This is true but the example makes it a lie.
The reason it is a lie is the analogy is reduced to ease
understanding to such a degree that the analogy is untrue. Allow me to
complicate things a bit.
The reason you have bills in your mailbox is not because you
think there will be bills in your mailbox. The reason is that bills
are often delivered via the mail. One receives bills because one spends money. One receives
an unreasonable amount of bills because one spends an unreasonable amount of
money or one’s income is too low to sustain oneself.
In the first case, the manifesting thought isn’t the one expecting
bills. The manifesting thought is something more akin to I need all this
stuff or I am successful because I have stuff or I can spend all
this money. There are a thousand variations. Those are the thoughts that
lead to manifestation of unreasonable amounts of bills. Changing those to
something like, I only spend on necessities or I buy financial security
not objects will manifest a different reality and thus less bills.
In the second case, there can be many reasons for poverty.
Some of those are in a person’s control others are not. However, even those who
have more control over poverty than they think tend to feel that they are
victim of circumstance. Maybe a person makes just enough money to pay their
necessary bills. They may think there are not any better jobs out there.
This is obviously untrue as many people occupy those jobs. Maybe the thought
should be changed to I will put in the effort to qualify for a better job. Maybe
the thought is Weekends are mine. True enough but if that thought was
changed to I will find a part time job that allows me to work Saturdays
one may find such an opportunity. Since one is already paying one’s necessary expenses
all that money can be saved for emergencies. That is a huge stress reducer,
financial savings as you don’t have to borrow to cover an emergency and a step
out of poverty. Maybe, saving that money leads to an educational opportunity
that boosts one’s earning potential.
My point isn’t to bash people that are low-income. As I
said, there can be a variety of reasons that one is in that position that are truly
out of a person’s current ability to control or overcome. I am merely pointing
out how a single change in thinking can manifest a different reality. This applies every area of life.
Control your mind; control your life.
Friday, October 16, 2020
Power
Power is a strange thing. People often seek power while
having no idea what power actually is. All they know is they are not satisfied
with their life or some situation(s). The seek power over those problems but
since they do not know spiritual power, they take a clue from mundane power.
Mundane power is the ability to control people and
situations. For example, being in a position to hire and fire people, have
access to money making opportunities that others do not or being in control of social
perceptions or groups. While magickal power can be used in these ways, those
are not examples of spiritual power. This is true even though spiritual forces,
in the broadest sense of the term (i.e.
spirits themselves or life force energy), can be employed.
One can use a road opener spell to open a path to a new job,
bind a stalker or open up communications. Those are examples of magickal power
but not spiritual power as I define the terms. While you can open a path to a
new job as a charity worker or mafia enforcer, intent does not factor into
these definitions of power. Magickal power is the ability to impact the mundane
world directly using non-mundane methods. To use it, one must make specific
decisions. One must decide one wants a job or that a stalker must be stopped. There
is nothing wrong with using magickal power in this way.
I have met practitioners of hoodoo that do not look at their
practice as spiritual in anyway at all. I have met some say the traditional
prayers that go with some hoodoo practices that do not really believe what they
are saying. They simply acknowledge that a formula works. They do not claim any
particular spiritual insight or self-improvement has resulted from working
their tradition.
Spiritual power is different. There is nothing overtly to do
once one possesses spiritual power. There is no one to control. There is no
situation to manipulate. One simply lives within one’s own space.
Spiritual work is basically finding out what that space is,
locating the center point and residing there. When I first began my magical
track, my circle and home position within that circle look like this.
The circle encompassed all the events and interactions in my life. The red area indicates my then insecurities both valid and invalid. The black dot represents my home position at the time. Obviously, that is a very difficult place from which to navigate one’s life. Some people would choose to magically lash out at anyone who challenged this position. I did not do that. I did verbally argue my position and pushed people back. Yet, at the same time, I was constantly trying to fix myself. I believe refusing to do magick to control those past situations benefited me in the long term. In the short term, some people cleaned my clock!
As I began to have some healing abilities, I convinced
myself I was operating from a new place. This new place was mercy and
caregiving for those that “needed my help”. Not only is that a place of ego but
again a recapitulation of insecurity in a different form. It was as if I was
saying to myself, I must have improved because now I can help some people. There
were times where I bought into that line of thinking. There were other times
when I knew it was bull shit.
The image below shows a shift in my home position within my
circle. I was still out of balance and operating from a place of ego, albeit a
kinder one.
At this point, I was always taken aback when somebody I helped revealed themselves not to be my friend. I had conflated being kind and healing towards others with earning their friendship. That was an error on my part.
I could go through a lot of similar iterations moving both
the point and perspective within that circle. Yet, the story would not change
much. Life was always a struggle.
Only very rarely, when somebody was being particularly
troublesome, did I use magic to push people outside of my circle. Some might
call that controlling others. I called that creating a reasonable space within
which I could work. I’m sure it is pretty easy to see both sides of that
discussion.
My point is, that when working magic to exercise control
(power), one pretty much stays in the same place. If that place is a position
of insecurity, an emotional need to control and dominate others, an emotional
need to help others or any other unbalanced place, working magic does the
practitioner little good in the long term. In fact, it becomes a cement keeping
one stuck in an out of balance or uncentered place.
The practice of spiritual magic or theurgy, is to keep
moving out of imbalanced places until one finds the center point within one’s
circle. At this point, the circle sel
Standing in that center point is such a strong place that
one is nearly unassailable. Yes, it is possible for the random person to shoot
you or rob you or for somebody else in your life to do nefarious things. If
that happens while you are centered and balanced, at some level it becomes your
own life lesson on a much larger scale than average. Or, it was simply your
time to go. While dying might be agony, death really doesn’t matter.
When you are at that point of balance within your circle it
looks like this.
If that looks like the symbol of the sun to you, in that you can find a clue to the first level of spiritual work. If that looks like an eye to you, that can be a hint for you about what it is like to be in this place.
When you are in a position like this, there is very little magic for you to do that has any impact on anybody else. Your sphere does that for you. Because those who enter that sphere very often automatically adjust themselves to a point where they either become participants, allow themselves to heal, or move elsewhere. The work at this point is simply expanding the boundaries of the circle.
Spiritual power is not exercising the need to control. Spiritual power is simply expansion.
Saturday, October 10, 2020
Protecting Yourself from Magickal Attack
People that hang out with those that do magick, risk falling under magickal attack from time to time. I do not know if the risk is more or less if you don’t hang out with magick users. In a previous post, I mentioned smacking some people around that threatened my job. Those folks were not magick users. They still wound up on the other side of my magick.
So, how do you protect yourself. Stones? Herbs? Protective
spells or spirits? Perhaps.
There is something else. Magickal attacks hit your weak
points. If someone wants to steal your mate, their first magickal attack will
be to create a rift in your relationship. To prevent that, treat your mate with
respect. Help your partner as much as your partner helps you. Do not cheat. Communicate
well. Keep your finances in order. There is no place for the attack to hit.
If someone wants to impact your job, that spell will seek
out a weak point. If you have treated your bosses well, done your job to the
best of your ability, have not stolen from your employer, been on time and treated
coworkers and customers professionally, your job is pretty safe. In order for
you to lose your job, the attack would have to take out your employer’s business.
Similarly, if you eat right, exercise, abstain from heavy
drinking, drug use and the like, a spell that attacks your health is going to
have to work pretty hard to find an avenue into your body.
In order to make this work, you have to take an honest
self-inventory. Denial is a killer. You have to list every fault and everything
above that you are doing that you shouldn’t be. Then, fix each problem. Some of
these issues can be solved magickally. Others solutions are more mundane. Still
like all such efforts, using magick and mundane methods together might yield
the best results.
Obviously, these things must be done before the attack itself.
Magickal defense is a life-style.
If you make a habit of self-assessing your weak points and
fixing them, magick worked against you is unlikely to be effective. The upside
is you are living a pretty nice life as well. There is another upside as well.
When you make magick to improve your life, it has all sorts of positive ‘weak
points’ to work through.
Need a raise? Well, you’ve been working hard, treating your
bosses well, showing up on time, being professional with customers and coworkers.
A little magick to push towards a raise will find a lot of help because of what
you’ve built.
There is no need to go through the list but you get the
idea. Living a positive life of self-examination goes a long way to protecting
yourself from the negativity of others. And, it puts you in a position to
realize even greater benefits through your magickal efforts.
Sunday, October 4, 2020
Offerings
Offerings are an important but often neglected portion of magick and developing relationships with those that abide in the spiritual world. The Qabalists have a saying, “As above, so below.” In this world, we give gifts to show our appreciation to each other flowers to lovers or sick friends, small gifts to say thank you for some nicety and let us not forget exchanging gifts during winter celebrations. Things cement relationships, show love and respect. Those that abide in the lesser seen realms appreciate them in the same way and have the same effect.
That said, this is a portion of practice I have long neglected
but with reason. I am a hard core theurgist. I have made offerings to the gods
in front of human witnesses. The deities in question have glanced at them and
paid them no mind. What I hear during these moments, is ‘your work is your
offering’. I believe that is because most of the deities I have reached out to
are known, in at least one of their aspects, to be theurgic by nature.
Therefore, they respected the work I was doing and viewed that which I was
giving up, the part of me that infers with full manifestation of my soul, as my
offering to them.
The offerings that I have made successfully of a more
substantial nature have been a quid pro quo. I give you this, so you will do
that. Those have worked or at the very least, not been viewed with
indifference. Many such beings understand the concept of payment for service
rendered. Some, like any good merchant, will try to cultivate a relationship.
My late friend Chris Greenwood had a saying, “Know who you
are hanging out with because it is the innocent by stander that gets shot!” He
was right. Some of these beings you do not want to hang out with. And, just
like any commercial relationship, you can close the door on the salesman trying
to sell you something you do not need.
Last night, my angel or my intuition kept pestering me to
read Jason Miller’s fine book The Elements of Spell Crafting. At first, I
couldn’t find it and gave up. Prompted again, I looked and still nothing. One
more time and my eyes went straight to it. When I saw page 80 with the title, Embrace
the Power of Offerings, I knew why I was there.
During the day, I had been asking a new deity that has
proved immediately useful how to form a better relationship with him. Offerings.
So, I followed the instructions in Jason’s book this morning. I didn’t just
offer to that deity but all the classes of beings and used Jason’s formula with
a slight personal alteration.
When this ended, I turned as advised and looked around my
backyard. I saw something that I didn’t see that said thank you. He introduced
himself by a common name and said that he had never lived in my home but was
attracted by the offering. He felt friendly. I also noticed that one of the swings
on our broken swing set was moving. This was not a subtle thing. The chain lone
chain and the board that hung from it were not just moving in a slight breeze.
The movement was significant. There was no breeze.
I felt different. I felt as if the universe responded in
more ways that I was aware of. This practice will continue.
Friday, September 25, 2020
Doing Negative Magick
Doing negative magic has always been controversial in the neopagan community. In other communities it is viewed as the norm. My views on the topic have changed over time.
I do not follow the rule of three. If you take that rule
literally, that would mean that someone who shop lifts would have items stolen
from them three times for every time they stole something from somebody else.
Or, they would lose something three times the value. I have never seen any such
literal mathematically precise result of magic. Even taken metaphorically or
with some concept of karma I’m not sure the rule of three can be accurately
applied. I do believe in what the concept is trying to teach.
Before I retired, I was a hothead at work. Having engaged in
this behavior for many years it is understandable that some people were afraid
to see me coming. Their resistance to my suggestions or activities came in
large part from my behavior. Though I have to admit that people much nicer than
myself also received this resistance but the response from people was always
kinder. Basically, I created a flow of negativity that did impact my enjoyment
of my work life. In one way because I allowed myself to get upset and in
another way because my being upset created negative feelings towards me that
were acted upon.
I feel the same way about doing negative magic. When the habit
is to do negative magic towards everybody that causes some offense, trespasses
upon one’s life, or that one simply doesn’t like, the practitioner walks into a
flow of negativity within his or her own life. Living within that current is
literally bathing in your own negativity, the negativity of others and one’s
own false perceptions of negativity. Pretty soon the magick users is at war
with everyone and everything. I have never seen this work out well. Normally,
these people are cranky, speak negatively about everyone around them are usually
unhappy with themselves.
That said, I do believe in doing the occasional negative
magic. In a prior post, I mentioned doing some magic in the workplace to defend
myself from people who wanted to fire me. That was quite easy for me to do
because they had no legitimate reason for doing so. If they tried to fire me
for being cranky, it would’ve been harder for me to do because I would’ve
agreed with them. I also feel negative magic is necessary when you are
encountering a particularly nasty sort of person. For example, a stalker,
thief, or someone that continually creates unnecessary mischief because they
are mean.
Such things should be relatively rare. If they are not, one
should stop and ask oneself what one is doing in order to attract that sort of
negativity on a continual basis. Chances are inner work is more necessary than
tossing about a lot of negative magic. That inner work will heal you in the
long term and make your life much more enjoyable
Tuesday, September 8, 2020
Mars, A Higher Use
Mars, along with Saturn, is traditionally referred to as a malefic planet. Given that is associated with war and the strife that brings, this association makes sense. Accordingly, many magicians use the powers of the planet to thwart their enemies in one way or another. Given Mars association with all surgeries, people use this force to cut people out of their lives, cut ties to unbearable relatives and the like. Even when a direct appeal is never made or the magic is done by those who only do sublunar work, the energy to do such things is generally classified as martial.
Mars can also be used to take one to victory in any conflict
or endeavor. More often than not, applying this sort of force will result in an
equal and opposite negative reaction from others. One can win the war but the
civilians with bombed out houses are unlikely to be happy with the victor.
Those that use this force well, use it while working with other forces to heal
the wounds left behind. Those that know history will see some of this in the
Marshall Plan after World War II and take note that Germany became an ally of
the United States.
The importance of expanding the metaphor cannot be
overstated no matter what force or spirit you are working with. Forces that
bring wealth are not just associated with money. Wealth can mean health, mental
acuity, deep friendships and being within the light of God. Mars in no exception.
The higher use of Mars is to cut away all things that
interfere with your ability to hear the voice of God and your courage (another
trait associated with the planet) to transmit those words as best you can. When
the ‘as best you can’ part is cut away and one becomes the courage through unassailable
faith, the powers of Mars are compelled to protect you.
This is not advocating the rabid martial insanity of a
street preachers and modern day pharisees. Those folks understand the law of
the Abrahamic god but nothing else. Their courage to speak comes not from this
sort of faith but its shadow.



