I spoke on the Golden Dawn today at four Anthropology courses at Fresno State University. The talks went well. No one fell asleep or died. I have done this before. Yet tonight I am exhausted.Tired. Tired. Tired. Stress from speaking? No, I don't think so.
I am tired because I feel spiritually stuck. I feel like I am not growing. My HGA who has been more vocal of late disagrees and points to a couple of major life steps. I can see them as that but those things don't fundamentally assist my growth in any way I can see at the moment. My mentor has been silent and non-communicative for some time. My drive appears to be fizzling in some ways.