Thursday, January 21, 2010


I am at a point in life where I want to do some active planning for the rest of it. To that end, I am reading a book called The Paradox of Choice: Why More Is Less which posits that we have so many choices that the resulting brain drain results in depression and less freedom. Basically, too many choices leads to so much wasted time trying to figure out which is right, analysis paralysis so you never get what you want, and the false creation of disappointment because you always know some other choice you didn't make is better. I will supply a complete review when I'm done.

In the meantime, I am evaluating what I really want. From there, I will make mundane and magickal plans to obtain those desires. I am looking for items in my life that I've been repeatedly drawn to or said I wanted. Magick is the primary example. From the time I was 18, I knew I wanted that in my life. I've also wanted to write. So, that is on my list. Naturally, most of this will be blogged about here.


I am failing on this goal at the moment. I have not given up.


Lavanah said...

You are not failing at the goal of forgiveness. Failing would be if you stopped trying for it and working at it without achieving it. As long at you are reaching for the goal you haven't failed; you just haven't gotten there YET.

Balthazar said...

Maybe forgiveness is not what you really want. Maybe what you want is peace, or release - but you have been labelling it forgiveness? If you got the thing you were truly after, maybe, forgiveness would follow in its own time?

Society and spiritual discourses in particular place a lot of emphasis on the notion of forgiveness, but sometimes we cannot forgive. And then we beat ourselves with that stick for all eternity.

We don't need to forgive in order to release something.

Just a thought.