Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Thoughts That Have Been Running Through My Mind

How can we live fully within the purest (note highest is no longer there) form of our souls?
What do we have to get rid of to do that?
Is it necessary to get rid of anything?
I don't hate myself but there is some part, some restraint, some perpetual curse, a la the previously posted video, that must be deal with, moved, overcome, removed.
Why am I only a cranky ass at work? Am I just in a purely wrong place or is there something to learn?
Reincarnation exists. What can I learn from that?

I am now praying to five spiritual entities using the Pray of Jabez as a model.

What will it take to break through? Incremental progress is not satisfying right now.

My back is healed but I still live as if it is not.

Why is it so hard to live in the FULL? Shouldn't that be the easy part?

I can't do the path of Sagittarius yet. I just can't. It isn't time but oh how I want it to be.

“When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.” – Lao Tzu That may be a better way of saying what I meant to say in the perfection post. 

Note to reader: Yes, I am completley sober.

Of course the answer to all of these questions is...SHUT THE FUCK UP and be silent.

3 comments:

nutty professor said...

You have such a great heart. Have you read Georges Chevalier's Sacred Magician Diary? I think he explores what you are talking about. It just feels like it is too, too much. Sometimes being this way seems to be little more than "controlled madness."

Robert said...

Thank you. I haven't read it yet but it is now on my list. If you haven't read the Magus of Stravolos, I highly recommend it.

Robert said...

Strovolos