As long time readers know, I cut off my 2.5 feet of braid in December. I have noticed how many more people smile at me in meetings, compliment my work and other such things since. These are nice things but the only difference in me is the length of my hair. If I was a jerk before, I can assure you that I am just as big of a jerk now. If I was nice before, I haven't become any nicer.
Fools they are.
Those who practice, to steal a term from Jason Miller, Strategic Sorcery, could use this type of thing as a prime example of something to use to influence things in your direction. People's prejudices are powerful.
For those that seek within, which can also include those indicated in the above paragraph, this is a prime example of how your own prejudices can fool you. Find them. Root them out. Destroy them!
Imagine yourself a busines owner that sees less talent in someone because of a manner of dress or other superficial quality. Does that prejudice make or cost you money? Get rid of it. Imagine yourself in a need of a friend, only to pass someone by that looks differently than you. We all hold this sort of silliness as a life truth but if we look closer, we will realize that we've been programmed to be superficially influenced. Rewrite the programming!
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Monday, February 9, 2009
Fewer Posts
I haven't been posting much as I've been working on mundane things and the Pantheacon event. Please expect the slow down to continue for the rest of the week.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Pantheacon
I am on the final Pantheacon schedule at the final time, Monday February 16 at 1:30. The topic of the talk is The Magick of the Self -- Your Holy Guardian Angel. If any of my readers are still around, I'd love to see you. Or you can contact this space in the next couple of days and maybe we can hook up before then.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
A New Level of Pissed
Well, I've faced frustration issues at work. I've blogged about them. I've talked about them. I've seen a shrink about them. I'm frustrated.
I work for the government. There are a lot of very hard working people there. In fact, there are not many left in my department that don't work their tails off. I've worked in both the public and private sector and while this will surprise government bashers out there, there are more diligent government workers than private sector workers. The problem isn't the workers, it is the system. The system is so complex because of the huge effort taken to make sure every tax payer dollar goes where it is supposed to that you spend two dollars proving were the other three have been spent.
I work on a computer system that tracks a certain type of services provided to a group of people in a situation that you can thank your god you are not in. My department represents the best of what society would like do for those that through no fault of their own are in a world of hurt and misery.
Yet, occasionally, I run into people that are so burnt out or so apathetic that the simply refuse do their jobs. One person can really drag these complex systems to a halt in a hurry. I am dealing with two at the moment.
Here is the problem. I am so frustrated right now that energy is coursing through my body like I can not believe. I feel like I need to take some downers. I don't do drugs. So, there seems to be a problem.
The magickal end is this. Wednesday night I did a middle pillar. In my tradition, you raise energy by drawing it down from the crown. In my experiment, I started at the feet (malkuth) and worked up the middle pillar and then back down. I did that at about 7:00 at night. I could not fall asleep until four in the morning because it raised so much energy. Last night, I slept 10 hours. Now, I am LOADED with energy sparked by that work frustration but it feels the same as that middle pillar energy only with an emotion attached. Coincidence? I don't know.
As you've read before, I just note things and record them. I will reach conclusions later.
I work for the government. There are a lot of very hard working people there. In fact, there are not many left in my department that don't work their tails off. I've worked in both the public and private sector and while this will surprise government bashers out there, there are more diligent government workers than private sector workers. The problem isn't the workers, it is the system. The system is so complex because of the huge effort taken to make sure every tax payer dollar goes where it is supposed to that you spend two dollars proving were the other three have been spent.
I work on a computer system that tracks a certain type of services provided to a group of people in a situation that you can thank your god you are not in. My department represents the best of what society would like do for those that through no fault of their own are in a world of hurt and misery.
Yet, occasionally, I run into people that are so burnt out or so apathetic that the simply refuse do their jobs. One person can really drag these complex systems to a halt in a hurry. I am dealing with two at the moment.
Here is the problem. I am so frustrated right now that energy is coursing through my body like I can not believe. I feel like I need to take some downers. I don't do drugs. So, there seems to be a problem.
The magickal end is this. Wednesday night I did a middle pillar. In my tradition, you raise energy by drawing it down from the crown. In my experiment, I started at the feet (malkuth) and worked up the middle pillar and then back down. I did that at about 7:00 at night. I could not fall asleep until four in the morning because it raised so much energy. Last night, I slept 10 hours. Now, I am LOADED with energy sparked by that work frustration but it feels the same as that middle pillar energy only with an emotion attached. Coincidence? I don't know.
As you've read before, I just note things and record them. I will reach conclusions later.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Do Stuff
Do more than one thing.
Yeah, I know. Brilliant! Next I will advise putting beer in bottles and writing down phone numbers in a little black book.
One of the tenets of the Western Tradition that I have been taught is that we must be of the world. There is no hermitage. We work. We have a social life. We do things (theoretically) that have nothing to do with magick. As some of you may have noticed. I am focus sort of guy. I do magick. I write about magick. I read about what other magick users are doing. It is rare that I have a social interest in anyone that isn't a magick person or at least interesting to talk to regarding personal philosophy or spirituality. I don't own a tv. Had I not looked at CNN that day, I had not known the Super Bowl was being played or who was playing.
My sister's brother lives with us now for his reasons which I will not disclose. He's been bringing me books in lieu of rent. I am reading again. I've read about 10 Terry Pratchett novels. Terry is one of us or he's researched us quite well. It didn't shock me too much to feel the subtle pull of magick when my mind was lost in his words.
Today, I picked up the Illuminati Trilogy by Robert Anton Wilson. This is not an easy read. He may have wrote it on acid. My mind though drops right back into magick mode even though my back is acting up. Why? Because I am so engrossed I am not thinking about magick. The rest of what I do has time to percolate or congeal or something. I am allowing a different part of my mind to work than I usually do. I love it.
There is a point to this rambling. If you find it, please let me know.
Yeah, I know. Brilliant! Next I will advise putting beer in bottles and writing down phone numbers in a little black book.
One of the tenets of the Western Tradition that I have been taught is that we must be of the world. There is no hermitage. We work. We have a social life. We do things (theoretically) that have nothing to do with magick. As some of you may have noticed. I am focus sort of guy. I do magick. I write about magick. I read about what other magick users are doing. It is rare that I have a social interest in anyone that isn't a magick person or at least interesting to talk to regarding personal philosophy or spirituality. I don't own a tv. Had I not looked at CNN that day, I had not known the Super Bowl was being played or who was playing.
My sister's brother lives with us now for his reasons which I will not disclose. He's been bringing me books in lieu of rent. I am reading again. I've read about 10 Terry Pratchett novels. Terry is one of us or he's researched us quite well. It didn't shock me too much to feel the subtle pull of magick when my mind was lost in his words.
Today, I picked up the Illuminati Trilogy by Robert Anton Wilson. This is not an easy read. He may have wrote it on acid. My mind though drops right back into magick mode even though my back is acting up. Why? Because I am so engrossed I am not thinking about magick. The rest of what I do has time to percolate or congeal or something. I am allowing a different part of my mind to work than I usually do. I love it.
There is a point to this rambling. If you find it, please let me know.
HGA Demonology
My friend Fr. RO says that those seeking their HGA are simply demonologists. He bases this on the fact that once you get your HGA you're supposed to control some demons. That is like saying that as soon as you're promoted to supervisor, you work is done as now you the power to control subordinates.
Getting your HGA does indeed give you power to have petty trifles removed from your life. Have a crazy neighbor whose rantings interrupt your meditations? Use magick and rid of him. Too impoverished to live in a safe neighborhood? Call a demon and get him to help you move out. That is not the Great Work. Those are preliminaries or necessities to the Great Work. Nothing more. Getting trapped in power is still getting trapped.
Use a demon to avoid the lessons of the path? Oh, that one will get you in trouble.
The Great Work is about making things better. You can make a lot of things better by making yourself better. Allow me to use an extreme example. Let's say you are hyper critical of your children. You do the work and calm down. Your children grow up with one less burden buried in their psyche, a burden they will not pass on to their kids. The universe has become incrementally better. That is the Great Work.
I know a man that has taken time out to teach many of us how to do this work. This has been stressful, frustrating, time consuming and, I hope, ultimately rewarding. He used his HGA to help us find ours. We in turn, may help the world to become a better place.
Doing the Work is about manifesting as much of human version of 'God' here as possible. It is about controlling your evil daimon for your own purposes and letting your 'good' daimon reign.
Getting your HGA does indeed give you power to have petty trifles removed from your life. Have a crazy neighbor whose rantings interrupt your meditations? Use magick and rid of him. Too impoverished to live in a safe neighborhood? Call a demon and get him to help you move out. That is not the Great Work. Those are preliminaries or necessities to the Great Work. Nothing more. Getting trapped in power is still getting trapped.
Use a demon to avoid the lessons of the path? Oh, that one will get you in trouble.
The Great Work is about making things better. You can make a lot of things better by making yourself better. Allow me to use an extreme example. Let's say you are hyper critical of your children. You do the work and calm down. Your children grow up with one less burden buried in their psyche, a burden they will not pass on to their kids. The universe has become incrementally better. That is the Great Work.
I know a man that has taken time out to teach many of us how to do this work. This has been stressful, frustrating, time consuming and, I hope, ultimately rewarding. He used his HGA to help us find ours. We in turn, may help the world to become a better place.
Doing the Work is about manifesting as much of human version of 'God' here as possible. It is about controlling your evil daimon for your own purposes and letting your 'good' daimon reign.
Monday, February 2, 2009
I May be Done
I have always reacted to threats by doing not much of anything. I am not quick to pull magick out of my bag. I don't know if I've been afraid of it or smart enough to realize that my magick (and maybe everyone else's) creates a lot of ripples in the pond. Frankly, most people's lives are wavy enough as is and I've never been one to seek revenge.
After what may have been a vampire type person sucking a bit of energy off of me, after dealing with some jerks at work, after recalling all the magick that has been thrown around near me by acquaintances and the like; after realizing all the magick that occurs in advertising at the rest, I am about to start firing back.
I am tired of obstructionists, people that think they can avoid karma via magick, and those willfully disrespectful people trying to influence me to do this or that. Life is hard enough without allowing these people to affect me without my permission, especially when they are sneaky about it. I am an upfront sort of guy. I don't sneak. I don't hide. If you want to know how I feel, just ask me. Sneaky, I don't like.
From this point, I will quietly draw a sword. It will take some thought at planning at having some ready to fire spells. I haven't done much of this. So I will have to think about it. However, the few counter-jerk and counter-magick things I have done seemed to have worked quite well.
That being said, I will not fire indiscriminately. I do not think the world is out to get me. Most folks, even magick users, really don't give a hoot about me or what I do. Thinking anyone and everyone cares enough to fire a spell at me is a bit arrogant. Though, everyone and anyone would be willing to get into my wallet (grin).
There are a lot of us that have 'standing spells' they go off all the time. "Hide me" is fine. "Don't embarrass me by pointing out my wart" is fine. "Shove away all those who disagree" Not fine. "Buy something" in an occult store...mmmm. Not sure. Fair game but I may not have money today. If I am budget conscious, that may be go away when I enter. "I shall intimidate you." Not fine. If I am unsure, not fine. When I think about it, my lines are pretty well drawn. Speaking of which, off to the drawing board.
After what may have been a vampire type person sucking a bit of energy off of me, after dealing with some jerks at work, after recalling all the magick that has been thrown around near me by acquaintances and the like; after realizing all the magick that occurs in advertising at the rest, I am about to start firing back.
I am tired of obstructionists, people that think they can avoid karma via magick, and those willfully disrespectful people trying to influence me to do this or that. Life is hard enough without allowing these people to affect me without my permission, especially when they are sneaky about it. I am an upfront sort of guy. I don't sneak. I don't hide. If you want to know how I feel, just ask me. Sneaky, I don't like.
From this point, I will quietly draw a sword. It will take some thought at planning at having some ready to fire spells. I haven't done much of this. So I will have to think about it. However, the few counter-jerk and counter-magick things I have done seemed to have worked quite well.
That being said, I will not fire indiscriminately. I do not think the world is out to get me. Most folks, even magick users, really don't give a hoot about me or what I do. Thinking anyone and everyone cares enough to fire a spell at me is a bit arrogant. Though, everyone and anyone would be willing to get into my wallet (grin).
There are a lot of us that have 'standing spells' they go off all the time. "Hide me" is fine. "Don't embarrass me by pointing out my wart" is fine. "Shove away all those who disagree" Not fine. "Buy something" in an occult store...mmmm. Not sure. Fair game but I may not have money today. If I am budget conscious, that may be go away when I enter. "I shall intimidate you." Not fine. If I am unsure, not fine. When I think about it, my lines are pretty well drawn. Speaking of which, off to the drawing board.
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