They kids began acting up today for the first time since Friday night. Not too shabby for ten minute's work.
Tonight, I went back. Fire Boy's fire was below him again. This time I asked why and was told to look to another child. So, I glanced at one of the few young people I know and saw how the fire was in her. In her case it was in Malkuth but traveled to the outside paths of Shin and Qoph then up to a certain point on those pillars. So, I mimicked that with Fireboy. I moved the fire, directed its path and then sealed Malkuth, Hod and Netzach. Kid fire does not go up to Yesod. The implications of puberty are obvious.
The only problem I had was bringing the fire fully to Netzach. I do not think I quite got it there.
I did see his brother as being tied to Fire Boy by iron bars. Oddly, they sleep in a shared bed that has iron bars. Regardless, the ties looked like normal brother ties. However, there was one at foot level that gives the brother all sorts of trouble. When I touched it, I could see him kick. He was very uncomfortable.
I told their mom about it. I have permission to remove just that one bar next time.
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Aspergers
My friend's child was diagnosed with Aspergers. She has a younger child that may have it as well.
Friday night, I performed a healing session. The boys were asleep and I just asked the universe which one to work on. I went to Fireboy. So-called because I could see fire underneath him. The visual was of fire burning under Malkuth.
I moved the fire up into the Malkuth sphere and sealed it with the names of G-d of that sphere.
That morning she reported both kids woke fine and behaved like normal kids. Prior to that, every time she woke them, she heard, "I hate you." She also noticed that Fireboy no longer mispronounces his Rs. Apparently, small speech issues are characteristic of the illness.
I am praying this lasts the boy a lifetime. We shall see.
Friday night, I performed a healing session. The boys were asleep and I just asked the universe which one to work on. I went to Fireboy. So-called because I could see fire underneath him. The visual was of fire burning under Malkuth.
I moved the fire up into the Malkuth sphere and sealed it with the names of G-d of that sphere.
That morning she reported both kids woke fine and behaved like normal kids. Prior to that, every time she woke them, she heard, "I hate you." She also noticed that Fireboy no longer mispronounces his Rs. Apparently, small speech issues are characteristic of the illness.
I am praying this lasts the boy a lifetime. We shall see.
Monday, October 29, 2012
Blind Fear
My magickal skills improved exceptionally with the Saturn rite. In fact, so have my work skills, communication skills, emotional stability, sleep (mostly) and everything else I put my mind to.
Tonight, I was going to start a 28 day lunar rite. As I prepared, I felt out of sorts, like a neophyte trying to do a first little something which is a BIG deal to a neophyte. I noticed but plowed on ahead. Then, as I got closer and closer to being ready, I began to feel afraid. This sensation kept getting worse.
I am a man that will go into temple afraid. However, this was getting ridiculous. My heart raced. I began to sweat.
I checked void of course moon and, yes, we are on for a long one. Now, I can work and heal in a void of course. It just takes a bit more focus and a solid sense of astral reality. Then it hit me! It is void of course and there is a massive storm over half the population of my country. YIKES.
My magical abilities serve me well in most weather conditions. I can even do rain or wind. Stormy, rainy and windy? Nope. Not yet. Even though it is fine here, I may be more senstive now and a huge storm like that may just have enough influence to whack me out. For those of you new to this, "Whack me out," is a magickal technical term that you'll learn as you advance.
So, given the scope of what I was about to do, I think the storm and void of course were my problem. My soul was screaming for me to stop and it registered as fear.
Make a note of that. When something feels off, check it out.
Sunday, October 28, 2012
A Most Wonderful Soul Reading (She of Spirit)
Yesterday, I performed a very educational soul reading.
Rather that the usual description of events, I am going to focus on what I learned.
Lately, I have been seeing an overlay upon a person before I get into the meat of the reading. In her case, I saw a goddess, maybe the goddess. She wore a crown and, behind her, the starry night sky. That was just the beginning!
Her animal soul (Nephesch) was Native American. I learned later she is of such ancestry. I was soon struck by the age of her animal soul. I thought them always to be children or in the case of older people early to be mid teenagers. Hers was a fully grown adult male Native American living within a crater like depression in the earth. He had a carved out home, like the Anasazi cliff dwellers. Quickly, I learned Nepesch had lived with her for lifetimes! I had previously posited that animal souls died with the body. Maybe they do as a norm but not hers.
At some point in a prior lifetime, she managed to make whole all her soul parts and this allowed the Nephesch to live on. It makes me recall seeing someone's Nephesch trying to better itself and rise up in worship of the divine. That image now makes so much more sense. Nephesch can live on. As I type, I am amazed at the ontological ramifications of this. I haven't a clue where to start.
So here it gets even more unusual. There are other living beings within the world of her Nephesch. I have seen splinters of the lower self before and even 'thought forms' of trauma or of the reaction to trauma. I have never seen fully autonomous beings within the world of someone's Nephesch. These beings at the direction of her shaman 'lower soul', formed a circle and danced in a counter-clockwise direction. The shaman offered her a gift which represented her full story and was intended to sooth the pain from her internal views of unworthiness.
She refused the gift. I think she is the first one to ever refuse a gift in a soul reading. I think that is because she was well aware of the paradigm altering effect accepting the gift would have.
(Note: this was a gift one part of her soul was giving another part of her soul which was refused. This process is exactly what restrains every aspect of spiritual growth. No matter the religion, refusing or categorizing gifts from G-d delays the inevitable growth of spirit. Pain is the result. Suffering.
Though, suffering is a good thing. It teaches us that the things we thought were important are not. This is why both the Buddha and Jesus suffered so in the wilderness. The suffering on the cross had a different meaning.)
Her automatic personality was next. Normally, this is couched in vague qabalistic symbolism of the generic Tree of Life. Nope. Hers was a full personality! She was HUGE, not fat, HUGE. I am not sure how to interpret that other than as import to my client's life.
From this point, I will this client She of the Spirit.
The woman of her automatic personality appeared seated behind an unadorned table. Perhaps that lack of adornment means that she has no precise religious dogma to appease but accepted the simplicity of spirit. She held, in each hand, a small offering bowl of liquid. She sipped from each one. This was an externally offered and internally accepted libation of the highest order.
Note: Libations and prayers to the Great Spirit, God, the Creatrix, or any god whatsoever must be fully internalized. The offering must come fully from soul sans guilt or worry. It is communion.
This woman in her own priestess.
Once I got past the sheer beauty of this sight, I looked around for the more typical issues of the automatic personality. I found none in the realm of desire. What I found lay within the intellect/emotion center of Hod, the eighth sephira of the Tree of Life. As far as I can tell, this is the most troublesome sephira of them all.
Here she lives with an overexagerated idea regarding her negative impact on others. She not only owns the pain of whomever she hurts but magnifies it beyond all reality. If, emotionally speaking, she kicks your shin, she feels like she broke your leg, owns the pain and the blame, devalues herself and blocks her true Spirit from manifesting fully. She is mistaking compassion (suffering with) with the sensation of pain she feels she caused another. Then she owns it to a ridiculous degree.
There is something more going on here. She is in the process of expanding her soul to include the other. This is what is allowing her to feel such intense pain. It is a bit like making love in that you feel the other's responses as your own. Yet this is beyond the physical and moves into accepting that other into being as a whole -- to stay there.
This is quite painful because everyone is in pain. Given the wide variety of pains we suffer as the human race, no one can know them all. So, when we feel them from within ourselves as felt by the other, they are shockingly intense.
She of Spirit is mistaking the pains of those she loves and respects as caused by her. While true in the most globally generic sense (we are all one, brothers and sisters united, and therefore all our pains are mutually caused and; since we are one, even if not the cause, pain is a shared experience as is love and all other things) it is not true in the personal sense.
The gift of her Shaman nature would have released this tension, removed that ownership of overblown cause and given her a more holistic understanding of her being, her perfection. In lieu of that gift, I advised going to Sedona and seeing the night sky on a night that was just a little cold and contemplating the vastness of the All. She is going in the spring.
I then moved to her Divine Personality. Holy Trees of Life Batman! I saw what can only be described as full Tree DNA. There were thousands of Trees of Life amongst many big ones. They were all interconnected and glorious. At the time, I saw that over lifetimes (she as is old as the Tower of Babel) she has reconciled so many pairs of opposites that the understanding perpetuates to this day. Now, I am reminded of the four world view of the Tree which places the Tree of Life as a whole in each of the four worlds. This in effect makes forty sephiroth. However, within each is another full Tree making 400. Theoretically, there is a Tree in each of those and in each of those and in each of those. Theory no more for Robert, I've seen it. Though, I agree with qabalists that actually trying to work within that structure is impractical.
It was here that I understood how the insecurities of the automatic personality were keeping this beauty from manifesting fully here. Further, that she is very close to being a yogi or 'god-center'. A being so full of spirit that others can see it and take sustenance and inspiration from her very presence. THAT CLOSE.
Yet, those insecurities make her feel so far away and so unworthy. Look in the mirror people, every human in is this place. She is just at the precipice. WOW.
Her immortal soul, a name that no longer seems to work for me after seeing a perpetual Nephesch, just kept pulsing one word, "Go. Go. Go."
I hope she does in this lifetime.
Personally, this impacted me more than learning about the soul structure. Often, I too feel so very far way from manifesting my highest divine nature. Maybe there are simply these same stumbling blocks of insecurity in my way. I can now see several of them. Is it just these or a host more? I shall persevere to find out and slay those dragons. Tally ho! Magick is afoot.
Rather that the usual description of events, I am going to focus on what I learned.
Lately, I have been seeing an overlay upon a person before I get into the meat of the reading. In her case, I saw a goddess, maybe the goddess. She wore a crown and, behind her, the starry night sky. That was just the beginning!
Her animal soul (Nephesch) was Native American. I learned later she is of such ancestry. I was soon struck by the age of her animal soul. I thought them always to be children or in the case of older people early to be mid teenagers. Hers was a fully grown adult male Native American living within a crater like depression in the earth. He had a carved out home, like the Anasazi cliff dwellers. Quickly, I learned Nepesch had lived with her for lifetimes! I had previously posited that animal souls died with the body. Maybe they do as a norm but not hers.
At some point in a prior lifetime, she managed to make whole all her soul parts and this allowed the Nephesch to live on. It makes me recall seeing someone's Nephesch trying to better itself and rise up in worship of the divine. That image now makes so much more sense. Nephesch can live on. As I type, I am amazed at the ontological ramifications of this. I haven't a clue where to start.
So here it gets even more unusual. There are other living beings within the world of her Nephesch. I have seen splinters of the lower self before and even 'thought forms' of trauma or of the reaction to trauma. I have never seen fully autonomous beings within the world of someone's Nephesch. These beings at the direction of her shaman 'lower soul', formed a circle and danced in a counter-clockwise direction. The shaman offered her a gift which represented her full story and was intended to sooth the pain from her internal views of unworthiness.
She refused the gift. I think she is the first one to ever refuse a gift in a soul reading. I think that is because she was well aware of the paradigm altering effect accepting the gift would have.
(Note: this was a gift one part of her soul was giving another part of her soul which was refused. This process is exactly what restrains every aspect of spiritual growth. No matter the religion, refusing or categorizing gifts from G-d delays the inevitable growth of spirit. Pain is the result. Suffering.
Though, suffering is a good thing. It teaches us that the things we thought were important are not. This is why both the Buddha and Jesus suffered so in the wilderness. The suffering on the cross had a different meaning.)
Her automatic personality was next. Normally, this is couched in vague qabalistic symbolism of the generic Tree of Life. Nope. Hers was a full personality! She was HUGE, not fat, HUGE. I am not sure how to interpret that other than as import to my client's life.
From this point, I will this client She of the Spirit.
The woman of her automatic personality appeared seated behind an unadorned table. Perhaps that lack of adornment means that she has no precise religious dogma to appease but accepted the simplicity of spirit. She held, in each hand, a small offering bowl of liquid. She sipped from each one. This was an externally offered and internally accepted libation of the highest order.
Note: Libations and prayers to the Great Spirit, God, the Creatrix, or any god whatsoever must be fully internalized. The offering must come fully from soul sans guilt or worry. It is communion.
This woman in her own priestess.
Once I got past the sheer beauty of this sight, I looked around for the more typical issues of the automatic personality. I found none in the realm of desire. What I found lay within the intellect/emotion center of Hod, the eighth sephira of the Tree of Life. As far as I can tell, this is the most troublesome sephira of them all.
Here she lives with an overexagerated idea regarding her negative impact on others. She not only owns the pain of whomever she hurts but magnifies it beyond all reality. If, emotionally speaking, she kicks your shin, she feels like she broke your leg, owns the pain and the blame, devalues herself and blocks her true Spirit from manifesting fully. She is mistaking compassion (suffering with) with the sensation of pain she feels she caused another. Then she owns it to a ridiculous degree.
There is something more going on here. She is in the process of expanding her soul to include the other. This is what is allowing her to feel such intense pain. It is a bit like making love in that you feel the other's responses as your own. Yet this is beyond the physical and moves into accepting that other into being as a whole -- to stay there.
This is quite painful because everyone is in pain. Given the wide variety of pains we suffer as the human race, no one can know them all. So, when we feel them from within ourselves as felt by the other, they are shockingly intense.
She of Spirit is mistaking the pains of those she loves and respects as caused by her. While true in the most globally generic sense (we are all one, brothers and sisters united, and therefore all our pains are mutually caused and; since we are one, even if not the cause, pain is a shared experience as is love and all other things) it is not true in the personal sense.
The gift of her Shaman nature would have released this tension, removed that ownership of overblown cause and given her a more holistic understanding of her being, her perfection. In lieu of that gift, I advised going to Sedona and seeing the night sky on a night that was just a little cold and contemplating the vastness of the All. She is going in the spring.
I then moved to her Divine Personality. Holy Trees of Life Batman! I saw what can only be described as full Tree DNA. There were thousands of Trees of Life amongst many big ones. They were all interconnected and glorious. At the time, I saw that over lifetimes (she as is old as the Tower of Babel) she has reconciled so many pairs of opposites that the understanding perpetuates to this day. Now, I am reminded of the four world view of the Tree which places the Tree of Life as a whole in each of the four worlds. This in effect makes forty sephiroth. However, within each is another full Tree making 400. Theoretically, there is a Tree in each of those and in each of those and in each of those. Theory no more for Robert, I've seen it. Though, I agree with qabalists that actually trying to work within that structure is impractical.
It was here that I understood how the insecurities of the automatic personality were keeping this beauty from manifesting fully here. Further, that she is very close to being a yogi or 'god-center'. A being so full of spirit that others can see it and take sustenance and inspiration from her very presence. THAT CLOSE.
Yet, those insecurities make her feel so far away and so unworthy. Look in the mirror people, every human in is this place. She is just at the precipice. WOW.
Her immortal soul, a name that no longer seems to work for me after seeing a perpetual Nephesch, just kept pulsing one word, "Go. Go. Go."
I hope she does in this lifetime.
Personally, this impacted me more than learning about the soul structure. Often, I too feel so very far way from manifesting my highest divine nature. Maybe there are simply these same stumbling blocks of insecurity in my way. I can now see several of them. Is it just these or a host more? I shall persevere to find out and slay those dragons. Tally ho! Magick is afoot.
Your Focus on Your Truth
Finding your truth does not discount any other but raises those around you for you see their beauty in a way that can uplift them should they so desire. The path to your truth is merely a focus, an ever tightening lens born of aspiration and hope. When one's vision is finally in focus one sees naught but the beauty of the divine, for you learn you are that beauty and so is all else.
Your vision is closer than you expect and may even appear to be so very wrong to others. For instance, there was a time I railed against Christianity. I saw the message of original sin as demeaning to the human spirit and the psychological states born of believing one is unworthy of God. This unworthiness is pervasive in the human condition and results in all sorts of trouble. Saying this in any form resulted in a huge backlash.
Yet, it was born of the idea, unknown to me at the time, of the inherent perfectness of all things. This, of course, makes original sin an impossible construct. My rebellion against the idea of original sin was born of an understanding of perfect of which I was not aware.
This is what I mean about focus. You get closer. Yet the idea is still malformed. When things snap into focus the resistance of others falls away to nothing as does your resistance of them. For even when resistance does appear, it has no impact whatsoever on the self for the vision is unassailable as it is born not of the ego.
Your vision is closer than you expect and may even appear to be so very wrong to others. For instance, there was a time I railed against Christianity. I saw the message of original sin as demeaning to the human spirit and the psychological states born of believing one is unworthy of God. This unworthiness is pervasive in the human condition and results in all sorts of trouble. Saying this in any form resulted in a huge backlash.
Yet, it was born of the idea, unknown to me at the time, of the inherent perfectness of all things. This, of course, makes original sin an impossible construct. My rebellion against the idea of original sin was born of an understanding of perfect of which I was not aware.
This is what I mean about focus. You get closer. Yet the idea is still malformed. When things snap into focus the resistance of others falls away to nothing as does your resistance of them. For even when resistance does appear, it has no impact whatsoever on the self for the vision is unassailable as it is born not of the ego.
Saturday, October 27, 2012
G-d is Gravity
The exercising of authority reveals that something is out of control. The habit of kings to prove their power only serves to demonstrate its limits. Therefore, there is no Kingdom of God for G-d rules the unfolding of all things as gravity beckons the rushing waters.
Thursday, October 25, 2012
Instructions of Cormac
I have been reading Brandon Myers' The Other Side of Virtue. Frankly, I cannot remember when I have been so impressed with a book. Mostly because I feel he shares so well what I have always thought. He simply does it so much better. Further, he had taken my thoughts on things and elevated them. In his work, I have something that has inspired me to new avenues of growth. Expect to read more about this book in the future. He quotes this:
Instructions of Cormac
(9th Century Ireland)
Be not too wise, not to foolish,
Be not too conceited, be not too diffident,
Be not too haughty, be not too humble,
Be not too talkative, be not too silent,
Be not too harsh, be not too feeble,
If you be too wise, one will expect (too much) of you;
If you be too foolish, you will be deceived;
If you be too conceited, you will be thought vexatious;
If you are too humble, you will be without honour;
If you be too talkative, you will not be headed;
If you be too silent, you will not be regarded;
If you be too harsh, you will be broken;
If you be too feeble, you will be crushed.
As I read this it became readily apparent that I have been "too" in each category and suffered the corresponding result! Therefore, I am adding this to my daily prayer/remembrance list.
Instructions of Cormac
(9th Century Ireland)
Be not too wise, not to foolish,
Be not too conceited, be not too diffident,
Be not too haughty, be not too humble,
Be not too talkative, be not too silent,
Be not too harsh, be not too feeble,
If you be too wise, one will expect (too much) of you;
If you be too foolish, you will be deceived;
If you be too conceited, you will be thought vexatious;
If you are too humble, you will be without honour;
If you be too talkative, you will not be headed;
If you be too silent, you will not be regarded;
If you be too harsh, you will be broken;
If you be too feeble, you will be crushed.
As I read this it became readily apparent that I have been "too" in each category and suffered the corresponding result! Therefore, I am adding this to my daily prayer/remembrance list.
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