Wednesday, July 10, 2013

The Benefits of Dying

Over the next few days or weeks, depending upon the schedules of doctors and how much insurance companies want to interfere, I could be getting very bad medical news. I am at total peace with that. I am not nervous, worried or concerned. It only took a moment to learn why.

I am at peace with what I have accomplished spiritually. I have literally seen the perfection, the  unfolding, the wholeness. My experiences include seeing demons, angels, gods and interacting with them all. I have seen and spoken to my deceased father (I think). Most importantly, I have learned how beautiful each human being truly is. I have seen souls...so beautiful. I have assisted in healings. My life has been enriched by friends and enemies alike. I owe no apologies because if I owed one, I made it in the moment.

Don't take me wrong, I have no death wish. I still have things I want to do. However, I am totally content.

Because I am me, I have a question. If I can be at total peace awaiting such news, how can work still be so irritating?

UPDATE: Second doctor says first doctor overreacted. He was a bit miffed that I was told to get to my GP "Now." Chances are very good that all is well.

5 comments:

Einder Darkwolf said...

I am rather Glad to hear that all is well and hope to see more of your writing in the weeks ahead. I've been following you for some time now, though I admit that this is the first comment I can remember leaving. Keep us posted and may your health improve 100 fold.

JustElila said...

Well good grief!!

Simon Tomasi said...

It's good to hear that the doctor overreacted. It sounds like you have more work left to do.

garangwyn said...

Robert! I'm glad you were at peace, because you gave me a bit of a scare! Do let us know for certain the results of whatever it is you are awaiting the results of.

Work is irritating because you see clearly the broken system and that so many people are caught up in it and unwilling to make changes that would make it work. It is your polar Aquarian at work in you...trying to figure out what to do with the parts of society that don't fit into the way things are supposed to be. It drove me literally insane. I couldn't work any longer in a broken environment, even though I understood that the fact that it was broken had its purpose, even if it was only to wake people up to the fact that it is time to wake up and fix things. Many things that are broken now have been created by us collectively in order to spur us to growth and evolution. But too many people get stuck in blaming the system they themselves helped to created, rather than see it for what it is. It is the sand in the oyster. an irritant put there for a specific reason, and it is up to us to make it a pearl. If the collective oyster is unwilling to do so, you are with the wrong people, and it only continues to be an irritant. Get out and find your people so that you can continue to grow.

By the way, you never did say where the benefit was in dying...hehe

Robert said...

Thank you Eidner, always good to hear from readers that I do not know are out there.

and thanks to the rest of you too!