I have sought the divine for a long time.
I've done some cool magick.
I've seen angels in parking lots.
I've seen a shemhamphorecsh angel and he's seen me.
I've seen a path and a sphere on the astral
I've had a god (Pan) land on my head.
More than many humans have experienced and yet i want more. When I get it, I shy away. Well, at least from Pan. I looked him in the eye but did not pursue the quarry. I wonder why?
It has been over a month of sitting, of doing very little. I feel stuck. I feel close to spirit and yet a million miles away.