Like many other people I found the results of the current
presidential election to be quite upsetting. This post is about my reaction and
not about politics. While you are free to disagree please keep that to yourself
in this venue, because this post is not a political forum. It's about magick,
theurgy, and my personal path. In the past, I have posted some very personal
and not so flattering things about myself in part to work those issues out, and
in part to demonstrate the process of doing the Work. So please take this post in that vein and do not
default to political thinking.
I am just over 50 years old. In that time frame I have
disagreed with presidents. Time has proven me right at times and wrong at other
times. . This is the first time the
results of a presidential election have scared me. This is a man that has
called for the registration of people of a particular faith. This is a man that
has frequently used racist dog whistles that are so blatant that one can no
longer pretend not to hear them. He has directly called for violence and has no
problem with sexual assault. These are
the reasons he scares me. The registration of Muslims should scare everyone
because history tells us where that can lead. Even if I am completely wrong and
my fears do not come to pass they are not unreasonable.
In the wake of the election I was freaked out for the first
time since seeing the Perfection. I was scared, and had a nervousness that felt
much like my old neurosis/obsession energy. It was not nearly as bad as in the
past but it was obvious, uncomfortable, and disruptive.
I considered doing nothing. I knew that if I allowed the
emotional state to degenerate significantly that it could lead to a break
through moment. There is a case to be made for enlightenment via crisis. The
Vision of Perfection came to me during extreme crisis. The experience not only
changed my perspective but relieved the mental crisis as well. Given it was
unlikely this angst would have led to such a severe crisis and release I opted
to do something else.
I have developed the skill of dreaming the answers I need
for myself. The technique is simple. If you pay attention to your thoughts they
appear to be coming from inside your skull. The skull then becomes a wall of
the conscious separating your thoughts from the outside world. I imagine that
wall expanding several miles around myself. Next I imagine a ball of energy. I
mentally tell it answer a question. Perhaps I pray to deity to assist. Then I
‘throw’ the energy as far into that area ‘outside’ of my skull. A dream answer
is more likely to appear than not.
In this case I prayed to the biggest conception of deity I
have, Aaoz. Aaoz is a name I made up that washes out all associations between
the word/name God and that of the angry desert god Yahweh. This form of deity
actually came to me in a dream a few months back as a very short friendly
fellow straight out of a Terry Practchett novel.
The result of this working was dream in which my former
mentor had created a pentagram out of black hose material. I told him that I
did not understand how this shape related to the macrocosm. The following morning
drinking my coffee it dawned on me to see the election as a macrocosm and apply
what I have seen of Trump to the Tree of Life, a qabalistic glyph that shows
the structure of all creation. That glyph contains ten spheres or emanations
that represent divine progressing downwards into manifestation. Each name I am
about to use is the name of a sphere.
The first sphere that came to mind was Chesed. This is the
sphere of health, wealth, expansion and kingship. Trump has tapped into the
energies of wealth and kingship. Expansion refers to his politically uncommon
ideas gaining traction. In a balanced state the kingship in Chesed is
benevolent.
My fears come from the next sphere, Geburah. This is the
realm of surgery, protectiveness and war. My fears is that the martial energies
he threatens to use will trump (pun intended) any form of benevolence.
On the Tree of Life Tipereth (the realm of the ego, reward,
and perpetual energy) is next. Balanced this is perfect beauty. Unbalanced this
is all about ‘me, me, me!’. Here is Trump’s huge ego, that part of him that
simply cannot handle any criticism.
The next sphere is Netzach or in English, Victory. This is
supposed to be victory over the lower the self but until that occurs it is the
victory of the lower self. Here Trump simply wants to win. He would just as
competitive playing a game of checkers as anything he is famous for.
Hod is the mental realm. He is a paradox here. He is a man
that has tapped into the mentality of many but his personal ideas seem ill
formed.
The last is Yesod. Related to the moon Yesod is full of
sexuality and change. We know how the first applies to the imbalanced Mr.
Trump. The second reflects how quickly his partially formed thoughts from Hod
morph into other things depending upon whom he is talking too. Yesod is
supposed to be a foundation but it appears his, at least in the realm of
mentality, is weak.
This is a very superficial analysis but it was all I needed
to answer the question. Here is how the energies relate from the macrocosm
(Trump’s election and the energies he tapped into) and the pentagram or
microcosm (myself).
Back in the day I was afraid of the forces that I would stir
up with magick. As a result I often called upon the martial powers of Geburah
to protect me. Some of you may recall past posts were I have stated there is
nothing more dangerous to themselves or others than a talented amateur. Here I
prove my point. In my case all that
martial energy inflated my anger and defensiveness, and let my analytical mind
dissect other people’s ideas to the point that (correct or not) people could
not accept my words. People cannot hear their behavior is a result of some
petty desire unless they are ready to hear it. Geburah energy does not allow
for such ground work. It simply attacks/defends.
So my fear of Trump and the electorate is that martial
forces (Geburah energy) will rush forth unchecked. Given my magickal past this
is a problem I have as well. I used to be angry all the time. Now it just comes
occasionally. My martial energies are all verbal, but that can do damage as
well. Therefore, I will fix myself by balancing Geburah (Severity) with a lot
of work in Chesed (Mercy) and the balancing path that connects the two. This
means that I will invoke the powers of Chesed and its associated planet
Jupiter. I will ask these powers to descend into my being and balance the
martial energies. Balance is the key word here. Sometimes martial energies are
needed. One should not forgo them, because they also have a role to play.
Since drafting this post I have begun this work. On
Wednesday (11/24/2016) I called upon the forces of Chesed and asked for them to
balance me. I felt like I had come home. I was ‘told’ that I will need to do
consistent work here but I am on the right track to achieving the balance that
I seek. I agreed to do that consistent work.
Working Notes
What follows are my working notes as I do this work. They
are unedited and thus may be unclear.
That same day (Wednesday) I felt compelled to ask the most ‘connected’
person I know to share with my why I cannot astral project across the physical
plane. He said that I do that all the time when doing tarot readings and at
other times as I do magick. I am just not aware of it. He provided me with a
specific grounding technique to assist in my quest consciously project in full
awareness.
That night while sleeping I felt the vibrations of
projection but did not actually project.
Thursday (11/25) and Friday, I did not do the ritual but did
do the grounding exercise.
Friday night I had a dream in which I was called out from a
large crowd of tens of thousands of people. I arrived in a room of 50 or so
people. There was a person on a platform in the middle of the room. He was a
famous real life singer you have heard of in the Wayne Newton or Neil Sedaka
ilk. I cannot recall his name now. He said he was mage. He held his sword out.
About this time I realized I had mine with me. He told me to ‘do what I say I
will do’. He said this three times. I took this to mean that I need to perform
the Chesed ritual as promised.
Saturday, I performed the ritual in the morning before
anyone else woke.
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